P for Papercut.

Appreciation
A simple expression on how you put gratitude on something you received
Not a skillful expression to learn,
nor an artificial expression of human
It's a thankfulness towards what received.

For me
I appreciate toward
relationships, environment, music, myself & matters I encountered
I appreciate and respect
my family, friends, song artistes and composers, mother nature, and my body
Somehow, sometimes,
we might forget a simple sense of appreciation in part of life.

As an offerer received none appreciation,
a sense of sadness, melancholic thoughts,
arose together with self-thought-pathetic-reality,
value of offerings colossally tumbled from cold shoulders
None noticed the pathetic scene, just the one who offered the most

A simple happening,
myself as an offerer realized how appreciation related through people and matters
Consciously knowing that how appreciation related to mind and soul
Will there be second chance for same offerings?
Maybe... no

thought for this moment
Maybe... yes
if I would like to have a second attempt.


Yet, I believe offerings is the best way we can serve to others.


I believe the more we appreciate, existence of the appreciated will be more meaningful.

Raining
a word often inspired me much about writing an entry about it
Sometimes like it
Sometimes just hate it

Most of the time like it
when
feeling a sense of relaxation
pouring sound washes all the frustration
breeze purifies the dusty air

But dislike it
when
often make me stuck at outdoor
cause laziness among myself

the rain makes me feel easier 

sometimes cause me harder time
now,
it just cause me a harder time
because im just sitting around here
listen to the rain hitting the roof top
and numbing my senses.

and that's a pathetic rain for the moment

Sometimes I will think

What is the communication between people

Talking?

Hand gestures?

Eye contact?

Body language?

Listening?

Or message texting?

All are human communication, undeniably true

All types of communication are synchronizing each other to pay more respect to

Anyone.

Some prefer hand gestures more than talk

Some are more to listen

Some avoid eye contacting with audience

No wrongs in how you communicate

Just synchronizing more elements in communication may yield better result

That's a simple communication of human

makes daily life better, brighter and different.

But

Sometimes silence is a way of communication,

a spontaneous temporal understanding

for listener.

A state of silence is a way to communicate among us with 

our

inner self.

Simple yet clear mind you can feel in yourself

Just want something simple yet calm

By sitting in a wooden chair, slow pace of breath

Slow music yet in low volume with the playful silence melodic night

Give you more than you wish in philistinism.

Wish this moment can be eternal

But it won't be, we know...

Maybe wondering when will this moment be again

No need...

Just

Appreciate this moment is the best you can own now.

Just finished my 2nd book recently

"For one more Day" it called

from Mitch Albom who released a new book, 

"Have a little Faith"

A story of a mother and a son

short, simple plot, yet humorous

A series of short memorable moments between mom and son

A passionate mother towards his son in everything

Though reminds us the things that we might forgot 

in the past, now, and ever

A mirror reflected our childhood

Piece by piece of puzzles being recollected again

enable you to penetrate the past swiftly

Simple mother love more than anyone can give, 

tickle you a smile, 

and

touches your inner heart

Felt everything when finish this book

Just wanna say here, love you mom.

A gentle sip of

a mouthful of light clear dark boisson
Light & fresh fragrance, some kind like sweet vanilla

Feels lighter than water

smooth like a silk
a totally young flavor

Sweetness that suits me, not an ordinary sweet but a gracious tenderness to tongue
aroma of bean rolling around, like a young ballet dancer swaying around the globe
a little bitterness but last long not
a sense of aroma would hit till the very end of your every single hair

Let it till down the throat

a heavier aroma, like fragrance of cooked bean
bitterness on throat, nope
forehead getting warmer
a bit of leftover bitterness on tongue,
the desire for second sip

Again, second sensational ride for the next sip.

I came across "It" when I was in young age

"It" left me the implicitness of what would be the story about

"It" kept reminding me about the movie poster

"It" indeed gave me a deep impression

"It" kept slipping from my mind & pop up again and again

I was searching "It" during the age of time

Finally I met "It" and "It" was...

"The Silence Of Lambs"

Almost 2 months spent in hometown

Knowing it won't be the same 

Positively looking forward for the later days

Days by days, minutes to minutes

Understanding about something was getting more and more

Unfortunately good stuffs not showing up, all were the 'defects'

Truth no longer was the meaning I understood from my dictionary

Pretense was started walking into my soul

Deception also started the hell march into me

Believing sooner will be a precaution

Trustworthy is being teared down

Mask man was the way I looked myself now

Hatred much of being what I did

No matter in the stand for myself or to him

Being solo can be, but I wish not to

Being duo can be, but it burdens

Wisely choosing the correct path always generates the highest satisfaction, least hatred.

Sometimes I chose it, sometimes not

I chose the 3rd option sometimes, action without prior notice.

Sometimes felt fed up with something

Sometimes felt a mess with something

Sometimes felt the bonds with something

Sometimes I just want a simple thing - silence.

Every entries were inspired before writing

But it took me many nights to think what I would like to write for this entry

A bunch of words that unable to be expressed out

Pathetic...

Knowing the imperfects so can achieve the perfection

This may be the good defects, hope i'll learn something from it.

It is raining now

indeed unpredictable moment

suddenly my stumbled heart being pampered by the rainy moment

felt calm listening each of the rain drops hitting the motherland

listening to oldies even cheer up myself more

Tiring body hinder me from keep continuing this entry

Blank minded wrote none a good sentence

Just a moment for me and the downpour

sometimes fed up with human words

now let the mother nature sounds and I listen

bunch of noise from downpour

but 

that is the most simple and tranquility of sound.

It rains in the nick of time

cures my shattered hearts against every dissatisfaction

and whispering to me keep working up

as

there will be dawn and sunset forever.

It's ok, if you know the way your life are, I think you should cherish what you looking for; If you've gotten into the wrong way and you've realized it, perhaps it is the time to stave off; For those who still don't have any idea what is your life is, perhaps you need to have a small change in the way you live, try changing the way you handle your daily timetable for instance the time you wake up, for meal, outdoor activities, attitudes, the way you think, relationships etc. I think we as human, not fond to be 'unchangable' but if someone tends to change in the way he wants to, he will, and he will be.

   What im trying to say here is, we have the need to change from time to time. Change for the sake of better life? Better relationships? Better self-conscious? We can change, we are neutral to reform as we want, just believe that as long as you alive. Somehow we declined to change even its a small change in part of our life. But, once we encountered something that really will cause you catastrophe, by that time, we will change unconditionally. This is the way human is, as always. Once you've been bitten, you know the pain.

   Do it naturally, just take some time as short as 5 minutes of serenity or calm thinking something or flashback some matters you've done. Those moment should I interpret it as "self-learning-experience". Once you think back, you should have idea how to aware, realize, redo, overcome in the similiar situation. I think it is a good way for self learning, also able to ameliorate your self-conscious. No harm right...

   I did some several changes, I make a daily schedule in note form, I read other materials that I interested much, I change the way I study, I change my way taking a better and healthier meal especially breakfast, I try to decline supper, I try to think from different perspective, I pursue my short period target, I dare to ask something clouds me, I speak in a rational in the way I think, and I try to write more.

   Somehow, everything comes with an opposite way, something you wish to change, in opposite way something you would let it to stay as it is. Im sure that something that remains unchange is something good or beneficial. When time comes, we also need to learn to change. It is the law of the universe, every moment is changing, even the time, world, human, everything. So, when something changes to a worse one, just change in order to overcome it. Change is a solution, probably, the best way.

   Change to a good way or a bad way just depends on us, just remember the way you change it benefits to people, environment, and most importantly - conscience.

Afternoon

Went for leisure in arcade center

Tried Initial D 4

not bad...

Tried Initial D 3

Met an opponent

Just challenge him

Impreza WRX Type R STi Version V (GC8V) was my car

where

Impreza WRX-STi Version VI (GC8) was his'.

Firstly, he led...

then I led,

and he led again

then I be the head again,

aggressive driving, avoid careless driving, fast and furious
Great...exciting... competence racing...

Just bumper to bumper for the whole route, racing to lead each other

Drive till the apex of excitement, but

mistakes finally drew me to the second

i failed

but

this was the finest race in this year...

great to have that race...

 GC8 still the best car in ID3.
Undeniable...

misc.

just a random post

Its all began with a sunny morning
Realized many things undone
Knowing it would be the eleventh hour to do
A simple presentation would be easy to handle
Simple though an unready for myself

The time had come
Queuing the right time for it
It came
so sudden
even myself unprepared for it
Inducing worst presentation ever.

Accused myself for not giving the very best
Ruefulness filled within myself
Unable to return and correct it
Realized, less effort less gain

Later

Time for the toughest moment had come
Time for the final test
of
Projectile Testing Session.
Three attempts for the shots
First attempt - inaccurate.
In anxious and tension state
Second attempt
Tried very best for it
as consequence
We did it! Nice and superb...
A sudden moment in hyper relief and great satisfaction
through the vein and every pulse that heart beat
A hard work was finally paid off as a way of gratitude of teamwork
Bond less teamwork led to victory
Wordless moment always best to felt
Proud of all, appreciated everyone's hard work
Indeed, deeply appreciated.
Great accomplishment, being part of nice memory

A word to describe today
'V'
Shaped like a curve from origin dropped to abyss then arose
That was part of life
no pain no gain
less pain less gain
more pain more gain
no hard work no fruitful result
No regret although I have worked hard for it
at least
I really worked hard for it



Listening I wont live a day without you - Jolin Tsai *nice song.*

Motion, a universal law that everyone knows,
Energy generates motion,
Eventually generates reaction,
I walk, I reached, but I will loss energy.
I talk, someone listened, but I will loss saliva,
I listen, I remember, but I will loss concentration,
I sleep, I regenerated, but I will loss time;
I run, I exhausted, but I regain myself.
Running like a round of life,
It has "start" & "finish",
"Challenging sport" should i name it after,
It depends on speed, timing, breathing, mentality, concentration, & determination,
We can run any further we want,
But you think is it the furthest you can do?
Legs are ours, mental is us, the "will" only move us on... and on...
Exhaustion, delibitation, tiredness, laziness, worthless, painfulness drag us from keep moving on,
"Stop moving" is a definite choice to be made,
But the implicit low voice would merely say "keep moving...",
In the mean time, what will you believe?
The painful, tiredness you're feeling now,
or
The "will" to get moving on.
Any seconds would be the decision,
Keep refreshing your mind, for the choice to be made, again and again...
No one willing to compete with you, but yourself.
From the starting point till the very finishing point,
Only the "will" will help you measure the distance.
Along the distance going through, just a progress learning yourself again from the beginning,
And you will know what will be the finest.