P for Papercut.

Lately i felt the need to blog, i don't know why, maybe I'm starting to know myself better that i shouldn't be that lazy and also being a time wiser, also being someone who doesn't procrastinate.

Few days left before reaching 1st & 2nd of April which is the date I'm afraid the most because it will be the days for my assignment submission period. Until now, i just completed almost 65% of my overall assignments. And now its already 28-03-09. And yet i still have some activity to join, hmm…

I try to sleep just enough, use the shortest time to do a thing in effective way. Not to waste any minute even seconds. Eat more, just the way to get some ‘leisure relaxation’ for me. ‘ Yam cha’ recently already be my favourite past time to share thoughts with friends, talk with friends in a relaxing state. What a leisure relaxation…

Yesterday while I was singing a song, suddenly i wish to quote something bear in my mind during my singing…

没有学问，啊。。。无脸见爹娘。

I think i quote from an old song that we used to sing during our childhood. Try to think im sure you knew what song that i meant. Anyway, that sentence became clearer in my mind, so i was stunned by a second, and think what is that sentence about. I think i have thought something…although it is just a simple sentence, but most of the time, we forgot the simplest things that we used to be…

Tonight is the night of 60 Earth Hour, at 830pm, lasts for an hour, for me, i will shut down my pc…and let the earth enjoy the peace for being ‘a lower electric energetic state’. Im not sure whether my university will join this campaign but I just do what i can do. Hope i will not forget that earth hour.

We are human, today we may be a good person, tomorrow we might be a bad man. Today we can be lazy, but will be a enthusiasm person in everything in the next day. What type are you depends on what you think of what you want to be. No one knows what you want to be, no one knows what are you the next day. You are the sign board, only the signboard assigned by you will drive you to the destination where you want to be.

You conclude yourself, i have no idea at all…^^ yet today is a great day to begin with^^

Currently listening to ガゼット - Without a Trace

mood: energetic, happy, glad, cheerful…^^

Recently im really tired like hell, its not because of a bunch of books needed to study at once, but the lack of time managing my stuffs, such as arranging meeting for assignments, and also some time needed to do my homework. But mostly the most difficult part is meeting for completing a certain task.

I think it was the day before yesterday, i was totally exhausted and hmm…ive slept for 20 hours for that day, but not continuously la… and then the next day indeed energetic but my energy was used in compiling darn programming assignment. I hate that because i don't know much of it, and I have to spend lots of time to understand it and then apply it. It is not hard actually, just that it takes time for me to do that assignment. aih…~

2nd thing is - math quiz, which i don't really take much time to prepare it as I'm kinda lazy to have a kick-start with it although the quiz just takes only 2 chapters. But finally i kick-started already, but maybe im too late to get ready for the quiz as i just started doing the revision at the night before the quiz on the morning after that night. LOLz… so lastly, i ended up a chapter only, and…during the quiz, pathetically, i knew to answer half of the paper only, that is so called stupid la LOLz… (maybe i should see through the next chapter, perhaps i knew how to do it…) anyway, just a reminder for myself not to kick start a task in such 11th hour.

Now, it rains…for me, raining period at evening time gives you a relaxing moment for staying calm at home, then just thinking nothing but just listening to the sound of drops hit every objects on ground. But now its around 630pm, the atmosphere is totally cold, quiet, relaxing moment, but still im thinking of my assignments that haven't settled yet. I want to move on, but in slow pace, really… I was thinking the date of all assignment submission date is going to cut down day by day. And, i know i cant just leave a slow pace for myself. I try to strive hard for everything i grab in my hand. I wont let it be unless i want it to be. So now, im sitting in front of my pc at my room, listening to some songs. Although im kinda sleepy now, but i try to arrange my time using my kokonut. Just hope that tomorrow will be better ^^

So, strive hard for everything so not leave any regrets…~^^

Currently listening to ClearVeil – REBORN (new album) - Iro No Kaketa Sakura

mood: tired, steam, sleepy, miserable, confuse, afraid…

I took some time reading through my previous entries.
I laughed...and felt that.."is that the real me???"
LOLz...
It's like im reading a story, with different chapters of oneself (even i knew its me, but something that im almost forgot)...
Suddenly i felt that, hmm... at least i, myself better than myself from the past...
Anyway, im almost forgot im not alone la, still got friends and family...
I dint mean im lost now but just felt a little bit stupid only...

I just realize that ive been blogging for 3 years already. And it seems almost 4 years already...

Anyway gotta go now, see ya ^^

Sometimes, i felt nothing, i heard nothing, i see nothing, but i can imagine something. It is an ordinary or even routine task for my brain.

Sometimes, i felt that... even im not thinking anything, i would spend the whole day thinking that blank thing.

Sometimes, Im really ok, even my brain is working well, but then my instinct told me that "this is not ok la..."

Sometimes, little changes of yourself may change the whole thing within yourself. It can be good or even bad.

Sometimes, what i wrote here is eventually all bullshit. Because, i know myself more than you do. Because of this, I need to take care myself well before others.

Anyway, this is just my recent thoughts. Nothing to specify much, just that felt a bit confused,anxious,worry bla bla bla...

I wrote this entry now while my brain thinks nothing. But still the wording still came out from my heart but not my brain. Sometimes i felt kinda tired, not because of physically stress but also mentality stress. Im a worker or even follower and i wont be easily stress out, but if you wanna me think this think that, i would surrender... is it my brain spoiled jor???

Everyone in this earth owns their 24 hours time per day, fully utilized without wasting it surely make you a great day. But then...i wondered how much time ive used to make myself more and more??? Something called 'Laziness' found me and followed me, I want to leave it, but...bla bla bla...

I wore a watch lately, just a reminder for myself that time is precious and do let myself be in time for every event or activity but not on time. Watch is sometimes like a pulse, secondary artificial pulse that make you have the sense of time. Although im not having an expensive well known watch but my watch which is analog, "ticks, ticks, ticks," every moment every single minute while in a silent atmosphere makes me think of time still goes by, even you are doing something or even nothing. Watch helps you watch the time, watch helps you lots of things. Watch helps you watch the furious of the rate of the time flow. So, do not underestimate the existence of analog watch ^^ (hmm...this is what i think using my brain...)

I got a story, perhaps next time, i will be here again...so tata~^^