My mind=miserable, many "why-s", odd feelings, many flashbacks

Wednesday, August 22, 2007 at 11:59 AM
Today i should say that it was a long-waited day. It would be a great day for me and hoping something good happened. And the day had started, it started fine with a shine and active morning. And it was 1230pm, thats the time I was going out. Luckily, my friend fetched me there. The best part later went on.

Firstly, we headed to Queensbay as we knew, we would skate there. I promised a friend that I would skate with her, but don know I was kinda "handgun" or that shit "ego-ness" which my old sickness came back seek me, and I refused to skate. Moreover, i was reluctant to make any choices either going for a movie or just skating. Things went kinda "stupid" i should said, and I was decided to skate and my friend whom i promised to teach her skate went for a movie. OMG...this was so "D4Mn-5hi7"... I din know what went through my mind. I felt it wasn't myself, and I couldn't think rationally and I was the dumiest thing i ever done since...the day my fever burnt my neuro system inside my brain. So, i just went inside and skate, but for my surprise, I managed to skate well, but the pity thing was, i couldn't get the chance to teach her. T.T . Cherish to me...not a good circumstance at all. And it wasn't a great moment for me even I could skate well. So 2-3 hours after that, we went out from the skating field and met them to proceed our 2nd programme- go Gurney to watch Jay Chou's new movie- Secret.

So when we got there, to my surprise, I felt like me again. But without noticing the circumstance, my sickness seek me again, that silly "ego-ness" made me like a "lan-see" person again, and make myself felt so so reluctant to talk with her. Cherish again to me... So we went for dinner, again I din sit with her but sit behind her, and also the stupidity me din talk to her again. I din know why but i just felt a lil bit so called- jealousy. Maybe this jealousy arose inside me because she keen to talk with her friends but not me. Ah...heartbreak, what to do...just wait for opportunity.

So movie time, we sat down in the 12th cinema and who knows, the sound system was great, at least it din let me down again. So Jay Chou's movie started shown. I was watching the movie and at that moment i was so so intro the movie. I was so seldom watching this kind of movie at cinema but none of this time. It was a weird feelings to me. I din know why this movie had touched me so much. I suddenly thought of many many things. As now, I have thousand of words but it was so hard for me to express it all right now. I was so speechless now for my feelings, I could feel but none of you. And the first time I had such miserable mind, thoughts, and ...speechless me... The movie was great, I should tell you it was great, it wasn't because it was produced by Jay Chou but it was just great that i din expect it to be such great. It tremendously nice and my mind was captured inside the story, tell you what...i seldom been captured by a certain movie but this the odd one. I just like Wong Chou Sang starring this movie, he was just a great father in that movie. So about rating this movie, i would give 8/10.

Later when I got home, i was totally surprised as my parents had not made any dissatisfaction on me, and i din know whether it was a good thing or not. But to myself I felt kinda regret. So, when i turned on the tv, I just noticed today there was a movie gonna screened that is- K19: The Widow maker. In the beginning I din enjoy this movie much, but later on watching it, i felt it was great as it continues on and on. This movie aspired me, what was so called heroes and what could we do in a circumstance that we totally have no other ways but just only and the only way to do it. So if for you, what would you do??? The movie would be boring for you, but not for me as I watched it throughly. The brave comrades inside the sub carries their duties and courages among themselves to repair the valve of a water cooler, and all of them who entered the radiation room was radiated by the Uranium ray and got contaminated and causing vomits, and body physical weakness. So, many things happened inside the sub and, the captain of the sub had to make hard decision to maintain his crew's life as the radiation inside the sub was getting higher and higher. So, what was so called hero?? The crew inside the sub finally safe, but all of them were later isolated and were "checked" by the military. And really they din know the circumstances inside the sub and couldn't make the precise and accurate verdict to sentence them. So, only heroes were called and remembered inside the crew's inside the sub for those who had sacrificed themselves. Sometimes, what you did some other people wouldn't know but just the people were in the same circumstance as you. So, am I getting better now??? Actually , at least better than just now.

To conclude, it was a wonderful day though. A sweet, pity, sour, sad, touching, resourceful day. So, I would like to share a term with you all, that is- please use your freedom well because you are a free person, and you can do anything but not exceed a certain limits. So own your freedom well.

Thank you, and I think this was the longest article I ever written, just thought that today I learnt and noticed many things. Was it a good thing??? I din know, if you read it, you can give some advice, or think that it was just a crap article, but...who cares, its my blog though...

So, have a great day and have a better tomorrow ^^

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