P for Papercut.

I'd never ever training for marathons, but this time was totally an exception, seemed like I've been challenged and so I did all the train ups before the 21.1km race. It was the Borneo International Marathon held on 6th May, annually held with the purpose as a charity helping the orphans, disabled, and protected animals. I've joined some friends for the run, but eventually turned up only 4 guys joining the 21.1km run. And I was one of them.

I was taking it quite seriously, don't know why. So, I did plan up my 6-week training program with the help from Internet sources, magazines and my past experience. Throughout the training, first few weeks were went constantly where 1 short run was made every two days, and diet on food also being considered as well. I chose vegetables most of the time during the period. So, I was once quite upset when the time rushing for my final paperwork which had made me skipped the routine training for 9 days. After that, I've thought of retained my stamina back, and made some reference on magazines to help the plan carried out in a correct way. So, training back to normal until I get rest on a day before the run.

During the race day, I was so much anticipated for it. Seeing the runners from all ages, going to starting line before dawn, with only one purpose - to start the run, and finish it. I was a bit nervous, felt not much prepared for the long run during training, but just do it. And I managed to complete the race which surprised me. 

The run, which I could say my most anticipated event in my life, I really ran throughout the distance, mentally supporting my body, sustaining enough energy to lift myself to the finishing line. It was so, WOW until I hardly believe it would bring me this far beyond what I seek from this run. Truly unexpected, as this was my best run ever. I would set it as my Personal Best for now and I'll break it for the next run. Here are what I experienced during my time at Sabah.

2011 KK City Run 4.5km - 24:00+

2011 BIM 10km               - 1:07:05

2012 KK City Run 4.5km - 24:00+

2012 BIM 21.1km            - 2:07:45

My next target is PBIM 2012 - 21.1km, I'll join it with friends, having good competition with them. Hopefully will break my PB. I'm so anticipated for the next run, even now I'm starting to collect infos and planning for training routine, to train my endurance once again for the race.

Before the race day, Ive been asked a question by my friend mentioning that what am i going to achieve in life, and joining marathon was one of my answer to her question. Seems, it really is, I'll run, simply because I like self challenging.

When it comes to birth of this blog, I took it as a tool to utter every severe unsatisfactoriness to what I encountered and jot down some sudden thoughts of myself. So, this blog entries mostly are come with some melancholy wordings expressing what's inside me. It did effectively job releasing "negative elements" by jotting down every moment being what I was, and every entries would be the history to refer back and not to repeat the same mistakes again. I would take every page as my very moment, every pages would consist my true self and hope it would be a lesson of self reliance to me and others. 

Somehow, most of the entries are published according to the feelings at that moment, so the expression might be a little bit abstract, and somehow I felt it "Crap lots!". When referring back all those entries, it made me smile, somehow I laughed my past, but just wishing to improve myself again. 

Somehow, I set a new schedule for myself, a time managing as always. But it consists of slow jog and work out daily, and hopefully proving that I'm being consistent enough to carry on the training. All the workouts just for the ultimate sports event coming, -the marathon. Hopefully by fully utilize my 24 hours time,time makes the best of me.

It's awkward for me to ask question since I started blogging, but since I have friend dropping comments, so it would be glad to have some guests to leave a couple of opinions. - How you utilize your 24/7???

Simple just as had happened,

The time I knew, 

It was too late,

I had missed it, unbelievably loss grab of it,

Reluctant to open the riddle of it,

Just to cover, everything of me.

Laughing happily, was hard, suffocating, damn awkward...

Also glad seeing the face of happiness,

Just perfect, the best smile ever seen.

Should felt relief, 

but

truly

i've missed it...

Too many words yet hard to describe in words

Laziness, Jealousy, Selfish, Calm, Sporty, Delightful, Grateful...

Only ones that could I remember entering a whole new year.

Ups and Downs, come along in random manner,

Just unable to repel it back.

Tired, is a reason;

Procrastinate, yet an excuse;

Loss of motivation, pathetic as a guard to stay in the old manner;

Laziness, the form of true self, the cause itself.

It has to be changed, drastically;

from every aspects, from inner to outer.

The only way, to overcome biggest fear of all - myself.