P for Papercut.

Its been a harsh period throughout this year and the past year for me to get a website done. The website had been planned since last year August, but website progress hardly to be seen during last year due to the huge battle that im going to face. So i just procrastinate it till my exam was over, and till now the progress of the website can be seen in a faster speed though LOLz...

After a few week struggling to manage the website, Ive been to several shops and supermarket just to find the time that really suit my own time so that i can manage the website in most of the time. And now I managed to do that, as a promoter in supermarket again... and most of the time I do the website. Setup a website indeed not an easy job, not just to know the way to design it, also it needs the skill to read the web codes so you wont be NUTS when you misconduct something from the code or some error you come across while managing the webby.

And I did spend lots of time designing it and also researching to suit some Adobe softwares. But something did make me so glad that is, Adobe bought up Macromedia is a superb and brilliant idea as now both company can work out to make better software for designers and me LOLz... to make things go easier and faster and more efficient. ^^

Hmm..its been 4.21am now, and the latest ever I keep myself awake since today is the off day for me but it seems not even a rest day for me as I have to struggle hard for tomorrow's website launch moment. Now, im proud of it and also kinda steam now, also tired as well... but anyway hope all the webby will goes fine. Im sure i can take care of it. But hope someone will teach me manage website in a better way, (im noob in dreamweaver though >.<#)

I think after the website launching moment, i will release a huge burden, I carried it and quite anxious every moment when im in touch with those thingys... Now, just think everything will go fine then I should leave myself to a relax moment... ^^

anyway, hope everything goes very very fine, and also...speechless as Im so sleepy and drowsy now, good day then^^

Long time dint write an article till now since the final day of my exam. Hmm.. nowi think i have to ended my "job" as the Freeman, Ive found a job and it will be not as bad as i think. Im gonna serve people as a waiter. As usual, anxiety comes before the real thing happens and this is the real me. Im always worry about something yet to be happen and always thinking of the worse scenario. OMG, im so pessimistic ... I dont know why also... It seems a fine job for me but it needs lilttle skill being the waiter. For me, it is a first time job and also...a new experience for myself and this is what i need. But i have some doubtful thoughts sometimes... maybe I dont have the confidence for this. But anyway, "Try first, if dont like then toss it" this is my principle flowing in my mind while choosing some songs LOLz...but for this job, i think im gonna go for a many tries. Not to give up so early or too soon.

My heard seems a maze like, i was the pacman inside and still seeking the way to end the game, and still seeking the way. Perhaps till tomorrow when i go to work, I will be the pacman who found out the sun or moon or stars leads me to the exit. Now, perhaps i shouldnt too upset or too worry about something. I always told myself everything will go fine, as always it goes fine...but I hope it really goes fine as i expected ...

Hmm...hope i will have a good time working there. It supposed an opportunity for myself to try something new, but also I have to give the confidence to them and also myself, at least for a chance for both to try... LOLz... im crapping lots huh... seems tomorrow I will have more thoughts to write over here.

Anyway, even though i will be working on the time that everyone off-work, but also have to work...at least the first day though... so I have to ganbantte neh... good day everyone^^

Its been sometime that Ive strive for everything just for a simple reason, to do well in the exam- STPM. Just recently i put lots of efforts in every subjects although i am sitting just 4 test papers. Its been a harsh time for me, since there are lots of things to follow up and non-stop-ly , and continuously and also working hard every moment, although im not a working machine with 24/7 all time "ON" but most of the time would be spent on studies although not much hours in a single day. But it might enough for me, i think so, and maybe it is enough, or maybe it will not enough much for me to sit for the ultimate exam.

Now, the day and night time before the very last paper, Physics Paper 2. This paper is my only and just only hope for the rest of the subjects since the other subjects that i took was counted "sink"... means doom and i didn't do well indeed. So, I did not admit I practice lots for this subject but just hope that I can do well, and hopefully can get a good result for this subject ^^

Now mood seems a little bit blue, I don know whether want to continue to strive for the last paper or just to take it easy, both of the methods i tried before and the results sometimes very "shit"... And now I just take the time before going to bed to write a bit journal about the whole 30-day time before the exam and now, Hmm... It might be a long story, but now most importantly just to leave an entry here.

Anyway, Ive done the very best to myself, even though it came out silly questions I also undoubtful about anything, just can admit that I didnt prepare enough for the exam. But most important is I GOTTO DO THE BEST for tomorrow's paper ^^

That's all for now, and good luck man, and good day^^

Lately Ive been an "owl" or suppose i should call myself an active one during night time as i began to take long nap during afternoon session. That costs me cant fall asleep easily when night comes. Is it a good thing? Im not sure, for me...its an abnormal for myself, but I began to suit it >.<#

I just wonder why people would keep them awake so late for what reasons, and now at least i know, maybe they want to have more time with the night and spend more moments with their private life or something else. But what influence me to rest during such late night, I think that mostly i will spend my little time in front of the pc listening to some songs and then had a little chat with friends or even share some thoughts over here before going for a good, nice dream. But then, lately I downloaded some Jdorama, and I took this opportunity(late night) to watch those. It is not something that is 18++ but the series so touched, and you can find some great lessons in it, and many times I would watch it by myself and thinking of the lessons it tries to tell me. And I think it would be a nice thoughts to learn up before i go to sleep.

And most of the time I dont know whether my actions brings me bad or negative consequence or not. Most of the time I think again before I made another same move. And hope what I did was right, and hopefully I dint hurt anyone else.

Also lately, I downloaded alot of new stuffs especially (jpop and also jrock as you know im obsessed with it). What I learnt from it is, many artists produce their own music, no matter how the song is, it is just depends on you how to judge those songs. Maybe you feel this song is nice but not for others, and also you really need to have a guts to try a new type of song, or even a new artist or even a new genre of song. Please do not judge so quickly by one's first impression, many times we are wrong, and who knows it is not the one you're thinking only by judging their first appearance. So like hokkien said so "hiong hiong ki try"...If you found that it is not your type, then you can discard them LOLz... but said is always easier than done. But anyway depends on you how you think about it.

Seems I crap lots tonight, but just have some thoughts here and dont know whom i can chat with... but anyway as i always said, blogging it the best way to express oneself ^^

Good day then ^^

Probably you will find that what im saying now kinda weird, but i just don't know have the idea to guide me to write about myself- perhaps a bit specify- my feelings... LOLz, perhaps i just can laugh out loudly for now, but not later... Hmm...where should I start my story??? I think i don have the need to be a story teller, just felt that lately im losing myself...

Be specify, you can see im smiling, laughing, enjoying... but when im alone, im kinda upset. I know the reason, but just kept it secretly... And im losing a routine activity lately, and it makes me kinda hectic, and sometimes... i cant concentrate though...

Probably an odd feeling though...

...what i do, what i say and what i think the name of my every actions in front of the noun I should add a substituent named 'mis'...

HHmm...sometimes I just dont understand myself, i keen to be a procrastinate person since this year. I cant manage to complete even a single task given, say truthfully... its kinda pathetic, im tryin to curb my silly procrastinate thingys, but I just redundant to do it... AHHH...help me...

This kind of life really is not the real me, help me... im drowning...

Erm...just thinking of something actually... nothing special though...at least felt relief for now...

*currently listening to Jacky Cheung- 心如刀割

Ok, it was the sunday early morning and I was concious around 515am, and ready for the ultimate run with my new shoe keke. Then after fetching my friend, we departed the destination around 630am, and stayed there like a nooby for an hour and then the race havent started yet swt...but to delayed the starting time.... but then "PANG (gun shots)" then the race started....

I was running smoothly and constantly...kinda great feeling though. Then, kept running, kept running. I tried to maintain my running speed and my breathing, and tried to run, run run, never stop....YEAP, i made it, along the whole journey i only stopped 4 times keke...it was not bad liao actually keke... and somemore, I wasnt exhausted but my leg muscles damn pain maybe due to some extreme exercise few days ago T.T but nvm d...its ok d ler...and I managed to complete the course around 22-30 minutes ler...keke, neeed to try hard next time keke...

That's all, my passion to run, to test my determination, to test my endurance from becoming an easier-getting-loser person, and also to test my will power to conquer something.

So, run is for health but NOT run away from problems because it was only for noob only, and also, do not procrastinate to do something...it will destroy you...and you...and you........only...keke.... Good day then~

Ok, its a wonderful Saturday morning, i had a great kickstart of course and then I had my breakfast, then it was the time to go out again, for what leh? Hmmm... to redeem my T-shirts for the next day's marathon and of course to get myself a pair of nice running shoe. I have been wanted to buy myself a new shoe for running since the day I bought a rm12 shoe which also not bad but also not the best one accompanied my running mostly everytime. And I think it is the time I need to purchase a new pair of shoe and let the old one "retire" hehe...

So then I went to PM, after redeeming my shirts with my friends, then head to some shops to ask for some great shoes, shocking me, a pair of good running shoe at least cost you a purple-bluish-$$$. Hmm... but then those shoes were too expensive for me, but then when i got into a shop and a salesgirl intro me a pair of shoe, which was Nike, but kinda cheap la, cost around 100+ and .............. I bought it LOLz...when i got home, i looked at it and it looked great to me, but I have a thought that maybe it will be fake or original one, so I took a search on net, Hmmm....it was a fruitless search actually, you know why???? Because the design couldnt be found in the official website nor the shopping list. But maybe its 1/2 ori 1/2 fake LOLz....coz nike got no additional design on its product but mine one had. But its fine to me...as long as it was a great one.

SO, should I need to be prudent, frugal and provident??? I don know, I just think it was worth it for me, as it would last longer ( and i also hope it will)... ^^~