P for Papercut.

When it comes to birth of this blog, I took it as a tool to utter every severe unsatisfactoriness to what I encountered and jot down some sudden thoughts of myself. So, this blog entries mostly are come with some melancholy wordings expressing what's inside me. It did effectively job releasing "negative elements" by jotting down every moment being what I was, and every entries would be the history to refer back and not to repeat the same mistakes again. I would take every page as my very moment, every pages would consist my true self and hope it would be a lesson of self reliance to me and others. 

Somehow, most of the entries are published according to the feelings at that moment, so the expression might be a little bit abstract, and somehow I felt it "Crap lots!". When referring back all those entries, it made me smile, somehow I laughed my past, but just wishing to improve myself again. 

Somehow, I set a new schedule for myself, a time managing as always. But it consists of slow jog and work out daily, and hopefully proving that I'm being consistent enough to carry on the training. All the workouts just for the ultimate sports event coming, -the marathon. Hopefully by fully utilize my 24 hours time,time makes the best of me.

It's awkward for me to ask question since I started blogging, but since I have friend dropping comments, so it would be glad to have some guests to leave a couple of opinions. - How you utilize your 24/7???

Simple just as had happened,

The time I knew, 

It was too late,

I had missed it, unbelievably loss grab of it,

Reluctant to open the riddle of it,

Just to cover, everything of me.

Laughing happily, was hard, suffocating, damn awkward...

Also glad seeing the face of happiness,

Just perfect, the best smile ever seen.

Should felt relief, 

but

truly

i've missed it...

Too many words yet hard to describe in words

Laziness, Jealousy, Selfish, Calm, Sporty, Delightful, Grateful...

Only ones that could I remember entering a whole new year.

Ups and Downs, come along in random manner,

Just unable to repel it back.

Tired, is a reason;

Procrastinate, yet an excuse;

Loss of motivation, pathetic as a guard to stay in the old manner;

Laziness, the form of true self, the cause itself.

It has to be changed, drastically;

from every aspects, from inner to outer.

The only way, to overcome biggest fear of all - myself.

原来，

时间已证实了，

喜欢这每个开始，

却逃避完美的结束。

可见，

我已遗忘结束的新开始。

人活在每天廿四小时中，

不是在于仅仅几粒钟，

觉醒吧。。。

It's been a small world to me recently,

as my sight is getting narrow and narrower,

in a day, I've sensed the limitation of my energy and time,

completing tasks is a routine work for me.

I've become more sensuous now,

trying to struggle for the best...

almost in everything.

Sometimes just want to leave it, 

but... just couldn't.

This night, just spent it ruthlessly...

watching dramas...

a Romance,

typically simply nice.

Helping myself re-mesmerize about my past towards persons I loved around me.

Just realize the existence of it, very true and real.

Is it time? Or, just let it be.

Even I couldn't assure an answer for myself.

Thus,

Just trying to complete what needed to be done first.

Then...

The rest, I will let it, but i'll care...

There's reason for all causes,

Only a cause for causes,

It just keep looping by its way,

Change, nothing really worth while,

Let it just slips away always,

Unable to catch back,

No turning back,

Dare enough looking the consequences,

Dare to endure,

 just,

One thing would change it,

Words...

It's unsure when I started liking late nights,

and yet the late night in hometown is best to be mesmerized.

It's not because I'm fond staying late night,

nor to enjoy the freedom given to myself at late night,

But, the atmosphere of sincerity and serenity eventually give me a sense of
peacefulness.

A wide view in front my eyes reviewed the great art of a resting rotating earth,

Everything humongous to microscopic seems clearly viewed, 

but in sense of that,

all matters are in resting state,

" They're sleepin...

and I'm sure they've been so tired after a day long... "

No noise could hit my ear drum,

only water droplets hitting metallic plate was heard.

It's weird looking at all matters in silent state,

It's awkward time just stopping from seconds to seconds continuously.

It's like looking a wide picture, a stationary motion picture,

Muting and pausing everything done automatically by sense.

Giving a sensational sight, stunningly by its serenity and calmness.

Depth and hue of the picture was just that simply... perfect.

Though it is indescribable with a single word,

but seems my vision have given a clue to my mind.

I don't have to snap the night,

as it will stay in my mind,

and re-mesmerize it with my own eyes, again.