P for Papercut.

Probably you will find that what im saying now kinda weird, but i just don't know have the idea to guide me to write about myself- perhaps a bit specify- my feelings... LOLz, perhaps i just can laugh out loudly for now, but not later... Hmm...where should I start my story??? I think i don have the need to be a story teller, just felt that lately im losing myself...

Be specify, you can see im smiling, laughing, enjoying... but when im alone, im kinda upset. I know the reason, but just kept it secretly... And im losing a routine activity lately, and it makes me kinda hectic, and sometimes... i cant concentrate though...

Probably an odd feeling though...

...what i do, what i say and what i think the name of my every actions in front of the noun I should add a substituent named 'mis'...

HHmm...sometimes I just dont understand myself, i keen to be a procrastinate person since this year. I cant manage to complete even a single task given, say truthfully... its kinda pathetic, im tryin to curb my silly procrastinate thingys, but I just redundant to do it... AHHH...help me...

This kind of life really is not the real me, help me... im drowning...

Erm...just thinking of something actually... nothing special though...at least felt relief for now...

*currently listening to Jacky Cheung- 心如刀割

Ok, it was the sunday early morning and I was concious around 515am, and ready for the ultimate run with my new shoe keke. Then after fetching my friend, we departed the destination around 630am, and stayed there like a nooby for an hour and then the race havent started yet swt...but to delayed the starting time.... but then "PANG (gun shots)" then the race started....

I was running smoothly and constantly...kinda great feeling though. Then, kept running, kept running. I tried to maintain my running speed and my breathing, and tried to run, run run, never stop....YEAP, i made it, along the whole journey i only stopped 4 times keke...it was not bad liao actually keke... and somemore, I wasnt exhausted but my leg muscles damn pain maybe due to some extreme exercise few days ago T.T but nvm d...its ok d ler...and I managed to complete the course around 22-30 minutes ler...keke, neeed to try hard next time keke...

That's all, my passion to run, to test my determination, to test my endurance from becoming an easier-getting-loser person, and also to test my will power to conquer something.

So, run is for health but NOT run away from problems because it was only for noob only, and also, do not procrastinate to do something...it will destroy you...and you...and you........only...keke.... Good day then~

Ok, its a wonderful Saturday morning, i had a great kickstart of course and then I had my breakfast, then it was the time to go out again, for what leh? Hmmm... to redeem my T-shirts for the next day's marathon and of course to get myself a pair of nice running shoe. I have been wanted to buy myself a new shoe for running since the day I bought a rm12 shoe which also not bad but also not the best one accompanied my running mostly everytime. And I think it is the time I need to purchase a new pair of shoe and let the old one "retire" hehe...

So then I went to PM, after redeeming my shirts with my friends, then head to some shops to ask for some great shoes, shocking me, a pair of good running shoe at least cost you a purple-bluish-$$$. Hmm... but then those shoes were too expensive for me, but then when i got into a shop and a salesgirl intro me a pair of shoe, which was Nike, but kinda cheap la, cost around 100+ and .............. I bought it LOLz...when i got home, i looked at it and it looked great to me, but I have a thought that maybe it will be fake or original one, so I took a search on net, Hmmm....it was a fruitless search actually, you know why???? Because the design couldnt be found in the official website nor the shopping list. But maybe its 1/2 ori 1/2 fake LOLz....coz nike got no additional design on its product but mine one had. But its fine to me...as long as it was a great one.

SO, should I need to be prudent, frugal and provident??? I don know, I just think it was worth it for me, as it would last longer ( and i also hope it will)... ^^~

Today i should say that it was a long-waited day. It would be a great day for me and hoping something good happened. And the day had started, it started fine with a shine and active morning. And it was 1230pm, thats the time I was going out. Luckily, my friend fetched me there. The best part later went on.

Firstly, we headed to Queensbay as we knew, we would skate there. I promised a friend that I would skate with her, but don know I was kinda "handgun" or that shit "ego-ness" which my old sickness came back seek me, and I refused to skate. Moreover, i was reluctant to make any choices either going for a movie or just skating. Things went kinda "stupid" i should said, and I was decided to skate and my friend whom i promised to teach her skate went for a movie. OMG...this was so "D4Mn-5hi7"... I din know what went through my mind. I felt it wasn't myself, and I couldn't think rationally and I was the dumiest thing i ever done since...the day my fever burnt my neuro system inside my brain. So, i just went inside and skate, but for my surprise, I managed to skate well, but the pity thing was, i couldn't get the chance to teach her. T.T . Cherish to me...not a good circumstance at all. And it wasn't a great moment for me even I could skate well. So 2-3 hours after that, we went out from the skating field and met them to proceed our 2nd programme- go Gurney to watch Jay Chou's new movie- Secret.

So when we got there, to my surprise, I felt like me again. But without noticing the circumstance, my sickness seek me again, that silly "ego-ness" made me like a "lan-see" person again, and make myself felt so so reluctant to talk with her. Cherish again to me... So we went for dinner, again I din sit with her but sit behind her, and also the stupidity me din talk to her again. I din know why but i just felt a lil bit so called- jealousy. Maybe this jealousy arose inside me because she keen to talk with her friends but not me. Ah...heartbreak, what to do...just wait for opportunity.

So movie time, we sat down in the 12th cinema and who knows, the sound system was great, at least it din let me down again. So Jay Chou's movie started shown. I was watching the movie and at that moment i was so so intro the movie. I was so seldom watching this kind of movie at cinema but none of this time. It was a weird feelings to me. I din know why this movie had touched me so much. I suddenly thought of many many things. As now, I have thousand of words but it was so hard for me to express it all right now. I was so speechless now for my feelings, I could feel but none of you. And the first time I had such miserable mind, thoughts, and ...speechless me... The movie was great, I should tell you it was great, it wasn't because it was produced by Jay Chou but it was just great that i din expect it to be such great. It tremendously nice and my mind was captured inside the story, tell you what...i seldom been captured by a certain movie but this the odd one. I just like Wong Chou Sang starring this movie, he was just a great father in that movie. So about rating this movie, i would give 8/10.

Later when I got home, i was totally surprised as my parents had not made any dissatisfaction on me, and i din know whether it was a good thing or not. But to myself I felt kinda regret. So, when i turned on the tv, I just noticed today there was a movie gonna screened that is- K19: The Widow maker. In the beginning I din enjoy this movie much, but later on watching it, i felt it was great as it continues on and on. This movie aspired me, what was so called heroes and what could we do in a circumstance that we totally have no other ways but just only and the only way to do it. So if for you, what would you do??? The movie would be boring for you, but not for me as I watched it throughly. The brave comrades inside the sub carries their duties and courages among themselves to repair the valve of a water cooler, and all of them who entered the radiation room was radiated by the Uranium ray and got contaminated and causing vomits, and body physical weakness. So, many things happened inside the sub and, the captain of the sub had to make hard decision to maintain his crew's life as the radiation inside the sub was getting higher and higher. So, what was so called hero?? The crew inside the sub finally safe, but all of them were later isolated and were "checked" by the military. And really they din know the circumstances inside the sub and couldn't make the precise and accurate verdict to sentence them. So, only heroes were called and remembered inside the crew's inside the sub for those who had sacrificed themselves. Sometimes, what you did some other people wouldn't know but just the people were in the same circumstance as you. So, am I getting better now??? Actually , at least better than just now.

To conclude, it was a wonderful day though. A sweet, pity, sour, sad, touching, resourceful day. So, I would like to share a term with you all, that is- please use your freedom well because you are a free person, and you can do anything but not exceed a certain limits. So own your freedom well.

Thank you, and I think this was the longest article I ever written, just thought that today I learnt and noticed many things. Was it a good thing??? I din know, if you read it, you can give some advice, or think that it was just a crap article, but...who cares, its my blog though...

So, have a great day and have a better tomorrow ^^

Why i said today was a great day??? It was because today i got to wake up early in the morning and go to youth park and started my run. Again, it was a 7km marathon, and I had boosted myself actually the day before, as little warm up hopefully could differ a better performance for today.

So the sun rose, then I started my own way to run my track. In the beginning it was a smooth and constant speed running, but in the mid way, my stamina dropped, LOLz...i don know why but i think i wasn't fit enough for a whole non-stop marathon run. But luckily i managed to complete the circuit and it wasn't 7km though but just 5 or more... So i completed in around 20 min time. I wasn't bad and wasn't the best after all since many people completed the race earlier than me T.T But not bad la for a rookie like me who seldom uses legs nowadays for "traveling".

So, after that i went to school with a friend of mine. Actually is she, she used to be my net friend, then went to school to see the school which was organizing the 90th Anniversary of Foundation. So we went there and saw those exhibition thingys. It was kinda fun since I seldom been to see these exhibition thingys, it was a resourceful "trip" indeed. Too bad couldn't get my friend home, but at least we managed to catch a coach then let her on the coach while i was the 2-wheel-vehicle on my way home. By the time i got home, now i realize what is so called -"steam" and sleepy. Just couldn't stand it and it seemed like I was in a wave, propagates in the air and feeling like being push from my back. So what should i do?? - bed la of coz ^^

So....at evening till night nothing interesting happened actually, just a rest then rest then study...routine life cycled on.

* A stupid man like me who gets up to blog while on my way to Holland*

Hmm...have you ever wonder what is so called speeding??? Of course, once you can drive you sure will know what is speed, and how you control the speed of your vehicle. Accelerating and speeding is one of the factor that catalysize you to speed up and have the thoughts of winning the other car besides or behind you. Actually, when you're driving a car, once you speed till 100km/h , i would gladly tell you :Its just that slow.

What is so called fast??? For me like car drivers, the maximun speed of a car can grant you is the fastest speed. But...for motor drivers like me also, i felt that 100km/h isnt the matter of a factor, but indeed its fast and you can feel the wind flows against you, and you can feel the wind friction. Its fast and furious once you speed up your vehicle more, and the more dangerous you will be because wind flow will cause you unbalance and easily lost control on your motorcycle. For an instance, I fetch my sister recently and sometimes i speed up till 70km/h . For me, its not a matter of a factor: Fast, but for my sister, she told me it was fast. But then, i felt it was slow as she felt was fast, so speed limits in people's heart is different to everyone and it just depends how you measure it only. And, once i got into 80km/h i felt it was the beggining of speeding, but my sis hold me tight and grapped me so well, and i could feel that it was indeed fast.

Once you speed, mostly we drivers may not notice we're speeding and arent fast enough for us. But from other perspect, we're indeed fast and just we can't notice only. So only the other people beside you can remind you how fast you've gone and what is the proper time to slow down due to self-safety and others. So sometimes, once we did something, we must think back and think again and again what are our problems and matters. Sometimes if we think from different perspect, we could have known what are our mistakes that we've done and we can correct it if still can. So....this is the thoughts i have right now, just want to share it with others...have a great day ^^

Are you the real you??? Recently i notice that our surroundings, the matter, friends, money, and even thinking will affect your action, and consquences. Indeed, whatever we do, we will do it, but most of the time we hardly to think about the consquences we will be causing. And naturally, we make mistakes easily, and regret. But...once you knew you did something bad or wrong, i 'd better advised you to change it from your attitude, personallity, thinking, believing... And try not to obssessed something, and change yourself in the good way so you can present yourself better next time.

Sometimes we should see something from different prospect, and we will easily predict the circumstance and consquence. Being a circumpect one, will help you to curb mistake made by yourself.

Omg...suddenly my mind was blank out, i couldnt remember what i wanted to write maybe i kept chatting with my friends. But anyway, just craps around....good luck ya to everyone^^

GOOD DAY ~~^^#