P for Papercut.

始与终

2011-11-10T23:55:00.000-08:00

原来，

时间已证实了，

喜欢这每个开始，

却逃避完美的结束。

可见，

我已遗忘结束的新开始。

人活在每天廿四小时中，

不是在于仅仅几粒钟，

觉醒吧。。。

it's 4 me, 4 in the morning.

2011-11-05T04:20:00.000-07:00

It's been a small world to me recently,

as my sight is getting narrow and narrower,

in a day, I've sensed the limitation of my energy and time,

completing tasks is a routine work for me.

I've become more sensuous now,

trying to struggle for the best...

almost in everything.

Sometimes just want to leave it,

but... just couldn't.

This night, just spent it ruthlessly...

watching dramas...

a Romance,

typically simply nice.

Helping myself re-mesmerize about my past towards persons I loved around me.

Just realize the existence of it, very true and real.

Is it time? Or, just let it be.

Even I couldn't assure an answer for myself.

Thus,

Just trying to complete what needed to be done first.

Then...

The rest, I will let it, but i'll care...

Flash back

2011-10-04T02:24:00.000-07:00

There's reason for all causes,

Only a cause for causes,

It just keep looping by its way,

Change, nothing really worth while,

Let it just slips away always,

Unable to catch back,

No turning back,

Dare enough looking the consequences,

Dare to endure,

just,

One thing would change it,

Words...

The night after the Sun

2011-09-05T01:46:00.000-07:00

It's unsure when I started liking late nights,

and yet the late night in hometown is best to be mesmerized.

It's not because I'm fond staying late night,

nor to enjoy the freedom given to myself at late night,

But, the atmosphere of sincerity and serenity eventually give me a sense of
peacefulness.

A wide view in front my eyes reviewed the great art of a resting rotating earth,

Everything humongous to microscopic seems clearly viewed,

but in sense of that,

all matters are in resting state,

" They're sleepin...

They're dreamin...

and I'm sure they've been so tired after a day long... "

No noise could hit my ear drum,

only water droplets hitting metallic plate was heard.

It's weird looking at all matters in silent state,

It's awkward time just stopping from seconds to seconds continuously.

It's like looking a wide picture, a stationary motion picture,

Muting and pausing everything done automatically by sense.

Giving a sensational sight, stunningly by its serenity and calmness.

Depth and hue of the picture was just that simply... perfect.

Though it is indescribable with a single word,

but seems my vision have given a clue to my mind.

I don't have to snap the night,

as it will stay in my mind,

and re-mesmerize it with my own eyes, again.

Knots...

2011-05-02T22:33:00.000-07:00

Life like a string,
it connects everything through knots,
if you like a relationship, it will be a beautiful butterfly knot,
if you dislike something, it turned out to be a dead knot,
if you encounter problems, it will be a miserable knot,
if you solved problems, you'll be satisfied to untie the knots...

Noticing many unknown knots that really annoying,
not really untied knots, but knots that appear from nowhere,
trying to trace how knots would appear at first,
Stretching and loosening strings seem helpless,
untying it just causes more miserable knots,
leaving it just happen to be escaping from the truth,
Somehow I know how the knots are there,
and how come have I been tying the knots by myself...

It's my choice to add or reduce knots,
guess it's time to untie the knots one by one...

Misery

2011-04-15T22:43:00.000-07:00

It's been a drastic change,
days by days... procrastinate? consideration? idling?
I tend to move sleazily these few days, some matters bother me, one of it might be my FYP.
The clock is ticking, every night might hear of it once analog clock is placed beside my ear.
A reminder for me it's time for some decision,
My mind starts synchronize with the ticking sound that make me keep thinking further, further way on every possible decision going to make.
Sometimes just want to make a swift decision,
but...
thinking of how every possible decision's consequence will be...
Decision making... always my best mate.
Finally, time push harshly...
made a decision... yes, decided... my choice finally...
stick to the plan, just move on... I'll take it seriously, no doubts, just do it.

slow, thoughts...

2011-03-27T22:28:00.000-07:00

What do I have in my mind now?
My sole answer will be " Lots...too much to fit all in this moment"
Frustrating academic assignments, my consideration regarding my final year project, the tiny things happened around me, and about my past....
I have to think, once every 3 paces ahead.
Sometimes felt just let it be, but the matters keep following, invisible strings attached, unable to cut off.

Challenge waiting ahead when we grow elder.
Just to strive hard for the sake of ourselves.

Conquered... again

2011-03-06T23:08:00.000-08:00

Again, suddenly have the enthusiastic to go for a run, 4km, at KK... so called City Run.
With a rush, sudden decision, so gone it by myself.
With my new shoe, conquered the 4km route, 24.03minutes.
Uh...

Not much satisfaction can be said this time...

but

looking forward

for the 10km one.

at May '11.

Run hard^^

Waste of time...

2011-02-28T23:59:00.000-08:00

Don't bother me, it was a waste on time on this day... class replacements yet tiring nights...

Why my own time have to be restrained by others?

Late night...

2011-02-12T02:39:00.000-08:00

It's been nights staying still until everything becomes silent
I know
I will be muttered when I was at home
I know
Staying such late night is fatal to my body and soul
I know
I will unable to wake up in time during the next morning
I know
I have to change this bad habit
But
I like late night sometimes...not every time when it comes to rush my assignments

In fact, some matters stuck in my mind, hesitating something about the days coming on. In need of taking steps forward to make things happen. Needing to make it happens. Hope will not fail this time.

Cheers and good day~

新年快乐

2011-02-04T01:58:00.000-08:00

几乎每天都会停留这儿，一直想再隔几天就多添一个entry。这样就隔了一个多月，就到了很期待的新年才添新的entry。

值得提的是今年的新年很好玩，吃的、玩的、一律棒。
家人与朋友的照顾让我感到人间温情，感恩万分。
但比较伤感的是，所谓人间情感的无常。人总会成长，人格随着思想而变，这样就把人与人疏远了。
但无常非坏事，我相信事件的好坏老天自有分晓，只待时间的证明吧。

觉得新年气氛无往常浓厚，少了许多轰天的炮竹声，缺乏新年喜悦欢喜的笑声，少见的亮丽壮观新年装饰，是我后知后觉还是社会对这佳节的乏味呢。

但

每逢佳节感觉都不同，就以喜悦感恩惜福的心境感受吧。

新年快乐。

一分与一分

2010-12-30T22:53:00.000-08:00

一分耕耘，一分收获
什么是真正的耕耘，才有所谓的收获？

所付出的耕耘，又能有如此想像的收获吗？

或者
不用耕耘，就有收获吗？

或者
一切耕耘，并无收获？

或者
耕耘是眼前事，收获只能被期待？

或者
慷慨大方一点，不求取收获。

我相信世间没有所谓的“绝对”与”绝错’，
只在于时间、地方、思想的恰恰配合，所做的一个判断；

我相信1.0的耕耘，就有1.0的收获；

我也相信10.0的耕耘，就有1.0的收获；

我相信1.0的耕耘，就有5.0的收获；

我相信0.0的耕耘，就有0.0的收获；

但我终不相信0.0的耕耘，就有0.1的收获；

我相信是因为发生于我，
不信是因为觉得不可能，
但是，人与人之间，意外收获是预料不到的。

终回一句，
愿重耕耘，不待收获。

5-movies-to-Intro

2010-12-21T22:40:00.000-08:00

Lately watched several movies, I think those movies entitled a credit for their plot uniqueness, purity of story with the characters fully anticipated in it, and the director who made everything possible. I'm not good in giving reviews on those movies, but if you like those genre, perhaps you can try for it. ^^

The Departed (2006) a remake from well-known HK "Internal Affairs"

21 Grams (2003) starring Sean Penn & Naomi Watts tell how life interact with human relations

13 Tzameti (2006), a french artpiece, black&white scene, story started bored but astonishing declaring the truth behind.

唐山大地震 / 余震 (2010) a film by Feng Xiao Gang, true history, simple yet a must watch.

Unthinkable (2010), an incident tells how far can our moral sense limit us in order to protect something bigger.

Have a nice day~^^

Experiencing another life

2010-12-14T21:58:00.000-08:00

It's been days, staying here at Sabah, my second home
Most of my friends went back to their hometown, some just stayed for their own academic purpose
Alone at room, but not in the house;
Somehow it is very calm here, the surroundings is extremely quiet.
Even ticking clock can be heard during bed time.
It is quiet, serenity, seems everyone had asleep such in early hours.
Not in night time, but the whole time...

"What can I do" I say almost everyday morning when I woke up.
"Nah...perhaps I can read some books" a second thought of myself, and
spent some time, it happened, I finished reading a book.
"Superb, meaningful" first thought appeared after going through till the final page of the book and close the cover.

"What to eat huh" A tense thoughts almost pop up figuring for my lunch and dinner
Somehow, laziness beneath me keeps me take the less time cooking the easiest dishes.
As long it fills my stomach.

"Where to do my internships" this thought frequent appear in my mind when I sit in front of pc doing nothing
"Hmm...Sabah, Penang would be ok..." thoughts after thoughts, but my butt still heavy to move myself to search for those companies throughout the area I desired to be.

"Raining...again...ahhh...again" I said when hearing the downpour hitting the house zinc-ceiling, watching out through the window, gloomy sky covers the shiny days. Again... it rains, and sometimes just disappointed and rather spend my time at home.

Although days by days, not much stuffs can be done here, limited nice and cheap foods, entertainments, friends, but just trying to fully utilized the free time, im sure it will be a good experience.

Appreciation

2010-11-29T03:30:00.000-08:00

Appreciation
A simple expression on how you put gratitude on something you received
Not a skillful expression to learn,
nor an artificial expression of human
It's a thankfulness towards what received.

For me
I appreciate toward
relationships, environment, music, myself & matters I encountered
I appreciate and respect
my family, friends, song artistes and composers, mother nature, and my body
Somehow, sometimes,
we might forget a simple sense of appreciation in part of life.

As an offerer received none appreciation,
a sense of sadness, melancholic thoughts,
arose together with self-thought-pathetic-reality,
value of offerings colossally tumbled from cold shoulders
None noticed the pathetic scene, just the one who offered the most

A simple happening,
myself as an offerer realized how appreciation related through people and matters
Consciously knowing that how appreciation related to mind and soul
Will there be second chance for same offerings?
Maybe... no

thought for this moment
Maybe... yes
if I would like to have a second attempt.

Yet, I believe offerings is the best way we can serve to others.

I believe the more we appreciate, existence of the appreciated will be more meaningful.

Rain oh rain...

2010-11-11T00:52:00.000-08:00

Raining
a word often inspired me much about writing an entry about it
Sometimes like it
Sometimes just hate it

Most of the time like it
when
feeling a sense of relaxation
pouring sound washes all the frustration
breeze purifies the dusty air

But dislike it
when
often make me stuck at outdoor
cause laziness among myself

the rain makes me feel easier

sometimes cause me harder time
now,
it just cause me a harder time
because im just sitting around here
listen to the rain hitting the roof top
and numbing my senses.

and that's a pathetic rain for the moment

Nature speaks the way they are

2010-10-24T16:33:00.000-07:00

Collected bunch of pictures from my friends regarding the trip we joint, feeling want to post it around but unable to search for a suitable time. Finally able to spare some time today and made some photo editing only. Credits and my appreciation to Ken Hong and NamoLiang@facebook for sharing the raw pictures. I've just corrected some lightning effects and color balance only. Enjoy^^

Trip to Mantanani Island, "the Jetty, sole light with the sea."

Trip to Mantanani Island, "Heaven and the sea".


Trip to Mantanani Island, "Crest of the dusk".

Trip to Mantanani Island, "Myself with the horizon".

A nice scene captured by NamoLiang@fb.

Tension vs Relax

2010-10-18T20:09:00.000-07:00

Again, I can say, its been a long time I didnt post a new entry
Ive somehow fed up each time I used this word after a long "Hiatus"
Probably this time, I have the chance to say it again means Im free and something had inspired me to write this entry.

Somehow,
I merely remembered when my last entry was posted,
Nothing special happened, nor something terribly changed my life, but in the mean of time I was able to learn some about time management and friendship.

Just wondering around, Ive begun to read, especially fond to non-fiction short story. Although every fortnight's time needed to renew those books at KK, but it's worth while to do it.
Reading a book "The Tipping Point" from Malcom Gladwell, hopefully can gain something valuable from the author.

As time goes by, every day is a different day to me, no matter in academics or entertainment.
Busier than ever, especially rushing for assignments, perhaps because of the influences of my group members, Ive poured more efforts in it and trying to make it till the best it can. Although it was tiring, but experienced the swiftly busy time seem let me know what is worth to sacrifice for.

Friends influenced much to me recently, no matter in academic or the other matters around. Friends do help us, but not too reliable on their generosity, overwhelm reliance may cause unwanted conflicts, certain limit of reliance is acceptable, foreseeing consequence is an essence.

Now my mind is full of thoughts, wandering around, weaving here and there.
Perhaps im a bit tired of all the stuffs after raya break.
Everything came and we countered it, sometimes few repetition for accomplishing it.
Not whining about anything
but
it is my style for doing it in each of my entries.

Currently writing in the dark now, ceiling fan with very slow rotating blades, slow pace of sky getting darker, not because I like the dark, it's just black out.
Sometimes wondering if I can snap a picture and let the story be told just beneath inside it.
Wordless explanation...
But somehow,
words able to bring something beyond a picture manage to express, right?

平静的夜晚

2010-09-26T23:25:00.000-07:00

Sometimes I will think

What is the communication between people

Talking?

Hand gestures?

Eye contact?

Body language?

Listening?

Or message texting?

All are human communication, undeniably true

All types of communication are synchronizing each other to pay more respect to

Anyone.

Some prefer hand gestures more than talk

Some are more to listen

Some avoid eye contacting with audience

No wrongs in how you communicate

Just synchronizing more elements in communication may yield better result

That's a simple communication of human

makes daily life better, brighter and different.

But

Sometimes silence is a way of communication,

a spontaneous temporal understanding

for listener.

A state of silence is a way to communicate among us with

our

inner self.

Simple yet clear mind you can feel in yourself

Just want something simple yet calm

By sitting in a wooden chair, slow pace of breath

Slow music yet in low volume with the playful silence melodic night

Give you more than you wish in philistinism.

Wish this moment can be eternal

But it won't be, we know...

Maybe wondering when will this moment be again

No need...

Just

Appreciate this moment is the best you can own now.

For one more day

2010-09-19T01:38:00.000-07:00

Just finished my 2nd book recently

"For one more Day" it called

from Mitch Albom who released a new book,

"Have a little Faith"

A story of a mother and a son

short, simple plot, yet humorous

A series of short memorable moments between mom and son

A passionate mother towards his son in everything

Though reminds us the things that we might forgot

in the past, now, and ever

A mirror reflected our childhood

Piece by piece of puzzles being recollected again

enable you to penetrate the past swiftly

Simple mother love more than anyone can give,

tickle you a smile,

and

touches your inner heart

Felt everything when finish this book

Just wanna say here, love you mom.

Tired, The Terminal

2010-09-13T22:53:00.000-07:00

Just watched a movie, a long waited movie I guessed. I really like his acting since watching his debut movie, "The Green Mile", a well known also the best from him - "Forest Gump", and the latest movie from Dan Brown's novel, "Angel and Demon". And you know it, he is Tom Hanks.

I like him, not because of his great looking guy, superb comedian would make my laugh off my *ss, or just adore him blindly? But the only matter concerns me - the naturalization of his acting, he plays the character well, simple and foremost, natural acting.

Tom Hanks

Just watched a movie from him, "The Terminal". I don't have much opinions or any recommendations on that movie, the story somehow seems a bit unrealistic for knowing all the persons in the US terminal, but what he did was great and heroic acts by solving a conflict. Anyway, I just felt touched for his will and determination to "wait" just to fulfill what he's going to do.

Indeed everybody does wait for something, just to see how long can you wait for something, or you just wait for something to come out? Or just wait for nothing?

The Terminal

Anyway, it's been a tired today as keep going out and just completed part of my assignment, anyway if you've watched that movie, please share it in the comments column^^

good night~^^

La première impression dans le café

2010-08-22T01:35:00.000-07:00

A gentle sip of

a mouthful of light clear dark boisson
Light & fresh fragrance, some kind like sweet vanilla

Feels lighter than water

smooth like a silk
a totally young flavor

Sweetness that suits me, not an ordinary sweet but a gracious tenderness to tongue
aroma of bean rolling around, like a young ballet dancer swaying around the globe
a little bitterness but last long not
a sense of aroma would hit till the very end of your every single hair

Let it till down the throat

a heavier aroma, like fragrance of cooked bean
bitterness on throat, nope
forehead getting warmer
a bit of leftover bitterness on tongue,
the desire for second sip

Again, second sensational ride for the next sip.


Americano with Hazelnut syrup

Thanks Jesyca with the recommended beverage ^^ finally I can taste it.

忙。。。里偷闲。

2010-08-17T19:40:00.000-07:00

最近比较忙，犹如失去了自己的时间与空间，不是忙功课，就是lab work。时间在飞逝，我还在原地，追赶不上那冲如风的矢，我犹如弓，毫无进展。

一路来常听音乐的我，最近也显得比较少接触它了。总觉得自己缺乏了什么东东，每天做着同样无聊的东西，毫无自我取进，就搜了‘搜狗’，找到了这专辑- 张学友的《Private Corner 迷你音乐会》。

我还蛮喜欢他，第一，他唱歌有个性，其二，我喜欢他唱 live。在那专辑里头，有我喜欢的两首歌，那两首歌也暂时填补了我心灵的空虚，就想在此与大家分享吧。^^

A long awaited movie.

2010-08-14T13:23:00.000-07:00

I came across "It" when I was in young age

"It" left me the implicitness of what would be the story about

"It" kept reminding me about the movie poster

"It" indeed gave me a deep impression

"It" kept slipping from my mind & pop up again and again

I was searching "It" during the age of time

Finally I met "It" and "It" was...

"The Silence Of Lambs"

The whole movie was nice if I were taken the first watch in 90's. I like Anthony Hopkins whom played Dr. Lecter, a sick psychiatrist also a cannibal who eats the intestine of his prey. Anyway, Im not bother about the profile he had, but in the movie I think he acted so well and was so attracted to his character. The interesting part is the way he pursued his escapes in a very slow pace from the hell-liked asylum (not because he can disguise to be victim but in a psychological way with the "help" from Jodie). Tending to control and manipulate Jodie's past and eventually traded the freedom for himself. Dr. Lecter was a calm, steady, sophisticated mastermind of the puzzle from his targeted prey, and a powerful analyser whom considers all posibilities of every humans behavior. This isnt a violence or blood sick movie, but just another way on how the lamb sneaks out from the farm without's the notice from the ranch.

Night Rain Sonata

2010-08-05T00:07:00.000-07:00

Every time encounter rainy days
Especially heavy rains
Feel better than always
A shelter from the raindrops with the freezing wind
State of calm
A sense of silence only with the noise of raindrops hitting the thin metallic ceiling
...
..
.
Home is the shelter of mine

-random-

That's the way..."lost melody"

2010-07-25T00:14:00.000-07:00

I'm always believe that Internet is the best way to retrieve anything especially songs, music, videos, movies or even pictures also websites. As long as you know the tiny crucial details or particulars on your searches, it will be a fruitful search but time is just the matter would yield you the results that you're looking for.

I've been searched songs all the way and now still searching for the so called "lost songs or lost melody" that slipped through my mind, so in order to "retrieve" back those melody, sometimes when in unprepared circumstance heard the familiar song in radio channel or through tv programme, I just tried to remember one short paragraph of the lyrics which I think is a bit more special to ease me for the later searches which will be narrowed and easier to locate what I tried to look for. And "poof" this is the main fruitful searches in this month, so I would like to share it here, maybe it's the "lost melody" for you...

Hope you enjoy it, have a nice moment^^

Monochrome

2010-07-04T02:52:00.000-07:00

Almost 2 months spent in hometown

Knowing it won't be the same

Positively looking forward for the later days

Days by days, minutes to minutes

Understanding about something was getting more and more

Unfortunately good stuffs not showing up, all were the 'defects'

Truth no longer was the meaning I understood from my dictionary

Pretense was started walking into my soul

Deception also started the hell march into me

Believing sooner will be a precaution

Trustworthy is being teared down

Mask man was the way I looked myself now

Hatred much of being what I did

No matter in the stand for myself or to him

Being solo can be, but I wish not to

Being duo can be, but it burdens

Wisely choosing the correct path always generates the highest satisfaction, least hatred.

Sometimes I chose it, sometimes not

I chose the 3rd option sometimes, action without prior notice.

Sometimes felt fed up with something

Sometimes felt a mess with something

Sometimes felt the bonds with something

Sometimes I just want a simple thing - silence.

Every entries were inspired before writing

But it took me many nights to think what I would like to write for this entry

A bunch of words that unable to be expressed out

Pathetic...

Knowing the imperfects so can achieve the perfection

This may be the good defects, hope i'll learn something from it.

well...this is what I need to say.

2010-06-06T23:58:00.000-07:00

I was checking my blog everyday wondering if I could post some entries, but in the end my laziness dragged me to post nothing from day to day. So, everytime I saw my blog, I wanted to write something new but there was nothing to inspire myself. Perhaps, I started to think that maybe I would just post something that could be shared among net friends. So, now I've used back my Tumblr account, which the link can be found in the top right corner of my blog homepage, entering it and you will notice there will be a new post. An audio sharing only would be my sole sharing this time, since nothing inspired my writing more, so why dont listen some songs that reminds you the past?

So, time to force myself to write more since the day after today I will be free until the 4 days countdown before the day joining a 3d2n camp. Time flows fast, indeed I have to enjoy my moment, kick-start everything and don't get laze anymore.

It is raining now

indeed unpredictable moment

suddenly my stumbled heart being pampered by the rainy moment

felt calm listening each of the rain drops hitting the motherland

listening to oldies even cheer up myself more

Tiring body hinder me from keep continuing this entry

Blank minded wrote none a good sentence

Just a moment for me and the downpour

sometimes fed up with human words

now let the mother nature sounds and I listen

bunch of noise from downpour

but

that is the most simple and tranquility of sound.

It rains in the nick of time

cures my shattered hearts against every dissatisfaction

and whispering to me keep working up

there will be dawn and sunset forever.

c.h.a.n.g.e

2010-05-04T01:02:00.000-07:00

Ever think that how is your current life?
Is it the way you wish for or you've offtrack to somewhere else
or
Don't have any idea how and what is your life?

It's ok, if you know the way your life are, I think you should cherish what you looking for; If you've gotten into the wrong way and you've realized it, perhaps it is the time to stave off; For those who still don't have any idea what is your life is, perhaps you need to have a small change in the way you live, try changing the way you handle your daily timetable for instance the time you wake up, for meal, outdoor activities, attitudes, the way you think, relationships etc. I think we as human, not fond to be 'unchangable' but if someone tends to change in the way he wants to, he will, and he will be.

   What im trying to say here is, we have the need to change from time to time. Change for the sake of better life? Better relationships? Better self-conscious? We can change, we are neutral to reform as we want, just believe that as long as you alive. Somehow we declined to change even its a small change in part of our life. But, once we encountered something that really will cause you catastrophe, by that time, we will change unconditionally. This is the way human is, as always. Once you've been bitten, you know the pain.

   Do it naturally, just take some time as short as 5 minutes of serenity or calm thinking something or flashback some matters you've done. Those moment should I interpret it as "self-learning-experience". Once you think back, you should have idea how to aware, realize, redo, overcome in the similiar situation. I think it is a good way for self learning, also able to ameliorate your self-conscious. No harm right...

   I did some several changes, I make a daily schedule in note form, I read other materials that I interested much, I change the way I study, I change my way taking a better and healthier meal especially breakfast, I try to decline supper, I try to think from different perspective, I pursue my short period target, I dare to ask something clouds me, I speak in a rational in the way I think, and I try to write more.

   Somehow, everything comes with an opposite way, something you wish to change, in opposite way something you would let it to stay as it is. Im sure that something that remains unchange is something good or beneficial. When time comes, we also need to learn to change. It is the law of the universe, every moment is changing, even the time, world, human, everything. So, when something changes to a worse one, just change in order to overcome it. Change is a solution, probably, the best way.

   Change to a good way or a bad way just depends on us, just remember the way you change it benefits to people, environment, and most importantly - conscience.

A day to remember

2010-04-27T10:12:00.000-07:00

The most exciting competition ever.

2010-04-14T11:16:00.000-07:00

Afternoon

Went for leisure in arcade center

Tried Initial D 4

not bad...

Tried Initial D 3

Met an opponent

Just challenge him

Impreza WRX Type R STi Version V (GC8V) was my car

where

Impreza WRX-STi Version VI (GC8) was his'.

Firstly, he led...

then I led,

and he led again

then I be the head again,

aggressive driving, avoid careless driving, fast and furious
Great...exciting... competence racing...

Just bumper to bumper for the whole route, racing to lead each other

Drive till the apex of excitement, but

mistakes finally drew me to the second

i failed

but

this was the finest race in this year...

great to have that race...

GC8 still the best car in ID3.
Undeniable...

misc.

just a random post

Thoughts of the day

2010-04-07T21:00:00.000-07:00

Its all began with a sunny morning
Realized many things undone
Knowing it would be the eleventh hour to do
A simple presentation would be easy to handle
Simple though an unready for myself

The time had come
Queuing the right time for it
It came
so sudden
even myself unprepared for it
Inducing worst presentation ever.

Accused myself for not giving the very best
Ruefulness filled within myself
Unable to return and correct it
Realized, less effort less gain

Later

Time for the toughest moment had come
Time for the final test
of
Projectile Testing Session.
Three attempts for the shots
First attempt - inaccurate.
In anxious and tension state
Second attempt
Tried very best for it
as consequence
We did it! Nice and superb...
A sudden moment in hyper relief and great satisfaction
through the vein and every pulse that heart beat
A hard work was finally paid off as a way of gratitude of teamwork
Bond less teamwork led to victory
Wordless moment always best to felt
Proud of all, appreciated everyone's hard work
Indeed, deeply appreciated.
Great accomplishment, being part of nice memory

A word to describe today
'V'
Shaped like a curve from origin dropped to abyss then arose
That was part of life
no pain no gain
less pain less gain
more pain more gain
no hard work no fruitful result
No regret although I have worked hard for it
at least
I really worked hard for it

Listening I wont live a day without you - Jolin Tsai *nice song.*

I SAW, you SAW it?

2010-03-19T21:22:00.000-07:00

I want to play a game.

KILLING is distasteful.

People deserved a chance.

Is this phrase or quote makes you think of something? This phrase struck my mind since I watched a movie, then I've been informed by my mind to pursue the following series, the 1st episode of the movie, actually I didnt have much idea what was it about, but the pursue for the 2nd, 3rd, 4th, 5th and the latest 6th episode just like the puzzle getting solved, the connection of each episode amazed me, the way the plot developed was particular, made me astonished after finishing each of the episodes.

I like horror genre movie, this movie is terribly violent and vicious suffering, blooding scene is nowhere to hide, the lucky one gets alive, but the unlucky has to pay for blood and died. What i SAW, isn't an ordinary movie, the plot makes it interesting over the serial episodes, the movie i meant all over is the thrilling maniac sophisticated killing mechanism in the movie - SAW.

Probably you will feel that the movie is full of blood scene, and it is massacre insane scene, but I think this is just the things that is obvious to notice, but the real great stuffs is the story, the plot, how the story develops, the psychological among humans, the strive of survival when human's life at the edge to the death door, how human will sacrifice when his/her life is at stake of death.

I like the recall before the story of each episodes end, how the mastermind plan of each "game" that his preys deserved to. Im not maniac, just was amazed by how a horror movie turned out to be a great story, how "jigsaw" give the "chance of reborn" to his preys, how jigsaw play the mind game through his cruel game, and why "jigsaw" did all this stuffs...

My personal favorite is the 2nd episode and 3rd episode, the thrill is there, I'm astonished in the end of each episode, the truth of the game is a devastating blow minded.

If you have the chance, just watch the whole series, I grant you will see how is the story amazed you but not the violent scene.

Have you watched it??? You have comments??? You're aren't agree with me??? If do, please leave some comments. Im really impressed John Kramer starring by Tobin Bell.

Have a nice day^^

愁

2010-02-28T01:25:00.000-08:00

还记得刚入新学期是一月，新年一过是二月，现在已是元宵，再过今天就迈入三月了。时间流逝得太惊人了，但觉得有很多很多事情还没开始弄，尤其是日语功课，真的让我有点‘逼扯’。说好在这个学期不搞活动但还是搞了，没法子啦。。。还是老样子，‘没事找事搞’，还好能抽出自己的时间享受享受大学自由的时刻。最近的我似乎对书籍感兴趣，借了几本勉励书籍，翻了几页，还真不错。其实，一路以来，很多时候我真的想把一本书给好好的看完，但总是看了一半就废了另一半。所以，我觉得最重要的也是选对的书籍来看，也在对的时间看对的书。

最近心情也起伏不定，有时觉得事事顺心，觉得满足；但觉得也有失落的时候。奇怪，应该不是太闲空而胡思乱想吧，或是学业上的问题吧，也不是。住宿方面没大碍，友情上也没问题，或许是感情上？我无可奉告，最近的我也只是‘平民’一个。每天做的都是普通事，吃、喝、玩、乐皆有。但脑海总出现一位，认识的，朋友。最头痛的是，此事在我头脑盘旋，我觉得这并不是坏事，只觉得或许是个幻觉？近日也看了好几部日剧以及动漫，也许是日有所思吧。

看来这是第一次以华文抒写这篇文章，感觉蛮好，只是打字方面需费多点功夫。我看就到此为止吧，在此祝大家元宵节快乐。

Run for your life...

2010-01-31T02:49:00.000-08:00

Motion, a universal law that everyone knows,
Energy generates motion,
Eventually generates reaction,
I walk, I reached, but I will loss energy.
I talk, someone listened, but I will loss saliva,
I listen, I remember, but I will loss concentration,
I sleep, I regenerated, but I will loss time;
I run, I exhausted, but I regain myself.
Running like a round of life,
It has "start" & "finish",
"Challenging sport" should i name it after,
It depends on speed, timing, breathing, mentality, concentration, & determination,
We can run any further we want,
But you think is it the furthest you can do?
Legs are ours, mental is us, the "will" only move us on... and on...
Exhaustion, delibitation, tiredness, laziness, worthless, painfulness drag us from keep moving on,
"Stop moving" is a definite choice to be made,
But the implicit low voice would merely say "keep moving...",
In the mean time, what will you believe?
The painful, tiredness you're feeling now,
or
The "will" to get moving on.
Any seconds would be the decision,
Keep refreshing your mind, for the choice to be made, again and again...
No one willing to compete with you, but yourself.
From the starting point till the very finishing point,
Only the "will" will help you measure the distance.
Along the distance going through, just a progress learning yourself again from the beginning,
And you will know what will be the finest.

The way it is...

2010-01-23T02:16:00.000-08:00

It's been a while I didn't post any entries since entering a whole new sem. As usual, a new sem brings new hope along with a new year resolution with just hoping I'll get the very best in every things. Things hastened in the beginning but Ive coped with everything over here.

Being here Sabah again is my leisure time with friends and buddies as I didnt join any activities somemore, so Ive realize Im so free as only 16 credit hours subjects for this semester. So, feeling that i have lots of time hanging out, playing games, also for movies...

Things got well in the beginning but kinda moody in later days. Not because of schoolworks, but just a little particular matter. Even worsened with the climate over here which has been a downpour for 3 days continuously, causing unpleasant atmosphere here. Just have to say, sucks to stay at room seeing the gloomy sky for 24 hours lasted for 3 days... Realized that 3 days had been the same day, boredom, ennui...

When the worst has passed, time to reach the peak. A bigday of mine which was my birthday just passed. Friends of mine gathered around celebrating the big day for me. Just feeling great that time, It was a nonstop events coming along. Planning the gather feast and just moved on without any hesitation. Human are simple, as long as the same species mixing around, everything will be fine as always... Just glad that I have lots of buddies here sharing everything. Different people sharing different thoughts, that is a truth...

Feeling still fresh and energetic even it's already 215am now, probably I overslept in the evening after a boredom day haha... now just felt want to drop something as the new entry. Gaining lots of thoughts before starting this article but almost all of it are indescribable. Anyway, try to live well with everything, always appreciates what you got and what will you get. Try meeting the world, you will discover what will be the most important to you. Sometimes, what you think is a necessity but it just turn out to be a need. After owning it, you will think it is just insignificant.

So, is it necessary to make this post as interesting as possible? In the end it is just insignificant...

-untitled-

2009-12-24T01:22:00.000-08:00

A quiet night, indeed very quiet, a milieu that seldom exists
Tiredness, repetition, curiosity, courage, alteration are my companions lately
Nothing seems to be tremendously special nor meaningful
Just a step to push myself to an advanced level
Methods have to be right, thinking has to be wise
Both conjugated becoming a heady action.

After tired reforming relaxation
Repetition makes things better
Curiosity seeks for the very truth
Courage makes oneself stronger facing the mother nature
Alteration are the causes of forming life.

Gain lots of thoughts getting the new job, glad to have it although im keep whining about it. LOLz... goodnight ^^

Feels right, just snap it...

2009-12-21T00:40:00.000-08:00

Snapping picture don't acquire any reason, if you feel it right then go ahead and capture it. I just snapped some pics, seriously scenery shots is my favorite, although not the best from me, but i still like it, random shots while I'm at Penang.

QueensBay Mall X'mas Deco shot #1

QueensBay Mall X'mas Deco shot #2

QueensBay Mall X'mas Deco shot #3

the rest are random shots...

Audiophiles

2009-12-16T22:15:00.000-08:00

Obsessing over the fidelity of audiophile has been part of my life since I started listening songs especially Jpop from the secondary school life. Until now, to gain the satisfaction listening to songs is hard for me, firstly I am choosy to 'love' a particular song as that song composed needed to be "rich-in-element" and secondly the instant of falling into the songs for the first time listening to it. So, I fond to listen the songs played by music band and orchestra.

As long as I'm with my pc, I will listen to my songs. But Im not so obsessed until listening songs as I am walking, eating, & sleeping. But listening songs definitely is my leisure to fill in my free time or whenever I am exhausted or even moody.

I think it would be great posting something about my historical audiophile on how it developed and the specialty of each audio tools.

Erm, this actually not my first ear set, but i got it from my mp3 player. This ear set is made in China and of course it is not a branded one, but I like it because the clarity to enjoy the music with low bass is definitely be one of my favorites.

my lovely speaker, PHILIPS MMS-430 which already 2.5 year old but still working so damn well. Treble - superior, but bass kinda unstable. Great for listening to classical and for movies. I think this speaker is not for normal usage, its for "R&R" usage lolz...

the AVF HM-888 is my first also my favorite headset which I received as a gift for purchasing my laptop. This headset nice enough to balance the bass and treble while listening songs with it. The pleasure of using this audio tool is the sensation of having a great 'boom' while you want to "R & R" !

the very first ear buds head set given from my sis. I don't dare to use it as I'm afraid it will make my ear drum explodes. Bass is stunning but felt the air pressure after going through a long period of usage which cause uncomfortable to my ears. But still, a nice audio tool.

Finally, my first ever audio tools bought with my own money XP - the Pioneer- SEMJ2. It is a mini type of headset. I like it because the clarity is fine and the bass and treble is balanced well. The clarity is so clear until you can separate or detect the presence of instruments used in that particular song. Not bad huh...

Thats the short profile of my audio tools. The enthusiasm listening and searching for great songs never stops. It will last until the time I give up ^^.

Sloth

2009-12-15T00:23:00.000-08:00

Opening the windows beside my bed
Feeling a cold breeze at my room
Stunned for a while to get inspired
as
Listening to some mandarin songs
A quiet atmosphere which only water droplets and the song played by me can be heard
Time flows from seconds to seconds
Waiting to escape from reality to dream
Looking forward for another great day
Just hoping everything will happen as wished
A simple life that carries the great meaning throughout the great day
Avoiding creating an emptiness or foolishness days by days, time by time
Wishing none a thing to be special, but at least it is something has to be meaningful
Many things still undone, yet the greed, temptations, allurement often causing task being unable to be accomplished
Trying hard on different things just hoping a new change in part of life
Move on, move on... the pace never stops, also time being here also getting lesser and shorter
A pathetic state can be seen only from myself
Since when...
Mr.L silently taught me to be a slothful one
Attempting to break the damn lessons, but felt impotent to against it
Seeking a method to break it... its time to end it
Time flies fast, an hour had passed
Time to escape from reality to dream
Dream ends when a new day starts
I don't hope for a nice dream but a great day

Good night everyone, have a nice day^^

Recall

2009-12-06T01:42:00.000-08:00

Suddenly having the 'impetuous' feeling to listen some of the drama soundtracks. Its nothing wonderful about listening it, but after a song and a song, it made me recall some of the great moments regarding to the drama.

I think this drama gave much impression and motivation to me. Thanks to Stela who insisted introducing me this series. Somehow i think by watching drama also can help get yourself motivated or even improving your personality. I think this is a great, well-done, touching, damn nice series. I was glad i got the OST, just like getting my paid for the hard work lolz... So, here it is...

Rookies, a jdorama based on a popular manga in Japan. This is the OST cover.

I think this OST album is well done, as I'm listening to this OST, the whole drama somehow still fresh in my memory. Try listening it, but before that you need to watch the drama. Without watching the drama, you wont have any idea about those instrumental songs.

Tomorrow or should I say now is Sunday, which is a family day. A day with family members again, hope it will last long ^^

A-Z List.

2009-12-03T02:56:00.000-08:00

Its 2.26am now, the scrumptious , toothsome steamboat really made me thought of writing something even it will be something inappropriate with my life, but I still figured it a while and just try something 'new' hehe...

Here it goes now.

Let the A-Z list starts...

A for Anomie.
B for Baka.
C for Care.
D for Dim-sum.
E for Eye.
F for Fish ball.
G for Gardenia.
H for Home.
I for Ice-cream.
J for Joy.
K for Karma.
L for lack.
M for moments.
N for near.
O for Obey.
P for Pole.
Q for Quiet.
R for Resting.
S for Selfish.
T for Tom Yam.
U for uniqueness.
V for varsities.
W for well.
X for X.
Y for years.
Z for Z.

Omg, after this 26 alphabetic challenge finally drew my concentration to the max limit and its time to get rest.

Good day^^

Rain, rain, rain...

2009-11-10T15:27:00.000-08:00

A rainfall this afternoon
After I was watching 2 episodes of jdorama series
Just realized the slow pace how time passed by
Everything seemed went slow
steady
easy
Eventually shaping a silent atmosphere
more like a serenity to me
I felt like writing in a sudden
seem the rainfall caused me a sudden moody silence
A time to wait the rain stops and wait for the sunray?
...nope, just want to remain this milieu
An easiness for myself

Rainy scene...=.="

Relief, Sweep the tension away...

2009-11-09T21:14:00.000-08:00

A hatred, interesting, purposeful moment after my last paper- Thermodynamics which caused a distress also a perturbation to me for the whole day. I was totally knocked out by the questions even though it was an open book test, also with solutions with me but it just couldn't help at all. A trauma in exam for the first time ever, leaving a 2 hour of blankness, emptiness of mind sitting for the paper. Maybe I did the revision in the eleventh hour, but just couldn't help as I didn't arrange my time wisely for the 2 papers just a day before the previous paper.

So, 4 days left before undergoing revision for the next paper- Strength of Materials. Truthfully, i was so reluctant to kickstart my revision to it, maybe i was too contented for my midterm paper. Consequence was I have to make the revision 2 days before the exam paper,- again... I was so hectic during revising the subject, or should i say learning the new stuffs for the sake of final exam as I didn't study much of the new syllabus after PT. So, the 2 days time really made me feverish until i have to burnt my time on it like a book worm. Luckily, I made it in time and able to finish most of the syllabus, and prepared to face the exam.

Luckily for me in this paper, I think i managed to do well for the questions. But something really awkward to me as I took many examination, i able to complete this paper 45 minutes before the time ends. oo... hope can get flying colors for this subject^^.

This semester Ive truly learn a lot no matter in social networking, studying, time managing, self improvement. I realize something that crucial to myself - time is ours, its depends on us how we are going to use it, you use it well, you get the things you expected. Just remember it is us who control the time and not let the time controls us. If we tired, we rest, after that keep moving on. That's the principal i learn from routine life. Just bear in mind that what we've done left no regrets and do share the grateful moments with friends and family.

Recently a simple game draws in my attention releasing my stress, also played a major role developing the critical thinking skill - what i meant about is the MineSweeper.

I bet this game is so familiar with you right? Yeap... its true, a simple game but... very interesting. Visually it is not so attractive but the satisfaction is totally indescribable... Just try it, you will like it.

That's for today, hope can get more posts soon. Good day then^^

Fruitful moments, gotta be...

2009-11-01T05:55:00.000-08:00

Its been tough, though fruitful moment for the past 3 days. Nothing special much but just had to spend more time to make my revision in order to face the final exam that will be tested 2 days later. Seems this moment i really spent my precious time sitting at my study table holding a pencil start my revision. Of course it is suffering, even i have to cut down my sleeping time and keep myself awake at night to get more time make my revision move on in a better way. I know this method cant work in longer period due to energy consuming is high, so this few days indeed will get tired easily and also my hungry rate is kinda high.

I think this method suits me well, as I will learn better in the night time. But still, the side effect is getting tired easily. I have no choice but to do this, I will have to sit for exam for 3 days continuously. All are my major subjects so I cant just let it be, or else there will be no 2nd chance. So, for the sake of the 3 damn papers, i have to do it.

Now its been 6am, the moment when people start their new life in the dawn, but its time for me to go bed. So, hope my hard work will be paid off. Time to bed already, good morning everyone ^^...

Dark or Light?

2009-10-30T07:37:00.000-07:00

Recently I have a few question pop up in my mind:
Rather Dark or Light?
Rather Day or Night?
Rather Pain or Gain?
Rather Sweet or Bitter?
Rather Hard-work or go-Lucky?

for me, i would choose dark also light; Day also Night; get pain before gain; Bitter before sweet; go lucky then hard work.

But something indeed a truth also not a myth: What you plant will eventually fruits what you want, but how much will the fruits be depends how much effort you put for the plant. Also, be wise using time, effort, space, hard work during up keeping the plant. When time comes, you will get unexpected fruit that will be your ultimate satisfaction.

Recently, i rather study in the moment when people sleeping in the cool night. A great feeling indeed although I have lost my routine resting time, but that moment is my strongest determination to get moving on with my revision. Ive conducted an experiment regarding this study method, and it succeed so it means that Ive somehow found part of my effective revision study skill. So, maybe you can try it...

Nothing to write also, just crap around, keep awake the whole night till now, perhaps i should move on, so good day then^^

The Boy In the Striped Pajamas

2009-10-12T23:45:00.000-07:00

Sunday, a miserable day for me since the ever early morning. When reaching the dusk, Ive realized that I missed out something, although it is not an important thing but I would think "am i really getting younger version of Alzheimer?"

A miserable day dare not to be forgotten, as I would think...

are people really need to aim high in order to achieve something?
A good Samaritan would hide a venomous dagger at his back?
Did our nose placed a higher position than our eyes?

OR

People who aim low would not get upgraded.
Venomous dagger just for protection.
Sometimes we look upon the sky, that should be the way they are.

But somehow, those questions kept turning me upside down. Indeed, there are various kind of people, just to face it, think about it, toss the damnation and keep the good one.

In the mean time, suddenly thought about a movie that bared in my mind for some time. I knew this movie is quite well known for its simple story, probably you heard it, and you have to watch it. It is the "The Boy In the Striped Pajamas".

The Boy In the Striped Pajamas

Story is simple like ABC, talking about a boy whos father is a soldier under the servant to Hitler era. This movie also talks about the hatreds of Hitler to Jews. The Hitler thinking is so strong that would get a person brain washed just in the mean time. A boy, Bruno, son of the soldier, moved to a new place and explored a kid named Scheuml. Cruel war scene and brutal killing parts are not shown in this movie but using the other way to show how cruel would the war is during WW II. I was surprised that the director of the movie would use such a way to express the war scene through this picture. I will recommend this movie, it would be bored as well but worth a watch ^^

7 Pounds

2009-10-10T16:33:00.001-07:00

It has been a free day after a whole busy session with Pesta Tanglung which was just happened on last week. Today, me whom a freeman spent the whole day doing room chores, washing multistory high clothes and also arranged my stuffs that split the whole study table. Actually, nothing special much, but bought myself a packet of rice and suddenly would like to had a movie as I was having my lunch. And, probably when time came, I watched 7 Pounds.

7 Pounds

It sounds good when I heard my friend gave a good comment regarding this movie. Somehow I forgot the synopsis of the movie, and also what was it about. But still, I would be glad to watch it on my laptop.

The movie eventually started well and really caught my attention. And I really didn’t know what would the story happened next. It really caught my attention, perhaps I like this kind of plot. So, I watched it, till the very end. One word I would like to say “Astonishing well done”…

Maybe you would feel bored watching this kind of movie, but to me, it is some kind like the things that happened in reality. Perhaps we couldn’t do as well as Ben Thomas did. But, the movie no need to show us “why this, why that, and so like this so like that” stuffs, but while you are watching it, you will know what I mean. This movie started from the finishing line and ends in the beginning line. So, this is an interesting plot, and I think this kind of plot will make you think again, and again to figure what had happened and what is going to happen.

Ben Thomas, would probably like the great guy as I saw in 没有玫瑰的花店（薔薇のない花や）which is a Jdorama. (Hope that I dint spell it wrongly). Hmm…I wouldn’t spend much time praising how much credits I would give to that movie, I would advise you just watch it and you will get what I meant. I like Will Smith ever in that movie, comparing to Men in Black? LOLz…maybe~

A quiet afternoon for me spending all the time in room just to watch that movie I mentioned about. Time to think by using brain and heart, also do well for yourself and for tomorrow. That’s all folks, good day^^

I mean it...

2009-09-20T19:27:00.000-07:00

After 3 days of non stop working, finally today I managed to finished most of my tasks and can rest for enough today. Working hard on those 3 days really cause me exhausted enough, and I really gave my best to it and hope all the things we've done will be paid off. Nothing should be mentioned more on what tasks im handling now, surely is PT thingys. Besides that, I needed to spend time to complete my course's assignments. Its like a person handling 2 stuffs, one was the booklet thingys and another was the lab report. Although I have 2 partners worked well with the booklet whom were Pei Chyn and Mun Hui (I salute them~!) with my insanity spent almost of the time doing the booklet. We did the task from the dusk till the dawn. Waking up in tension mood, just recalled that "time to go, if not, things wont get done..." Probably it was the hardest time for us, but now completing it we felt more relief than ever... deeply, really thanks to them, without them...i think im still take it as a burden as well...

Just watched "Okuribito", a Japanese movie which describe about someone's "departure". Also a movie that i wanted to watch since many of my friends recommended it. And now I just have the mood to watch it. So far, Im just amazed by the movie with less conversation but the body language really made this movie alive. You could feel it, I remembered the most emotional scene was the son seeing his mother being sent away in the "casket burning" room. Maybe its just a movie, some are fake...but i think this is the fact that you will feel when it really happened to you. Maybe even regret also useless by that time...

I fond to watch only Jdorama, its not because i have a huge interest for the Japanese Culture nor Idols. But their movie or even drama series really make something astonish out of the ordinary one especially the story, the value of life, the wisdom of life, the bond between people. Most of the time, we tend to forget the most important things in our life, also forget what we really want from the beginning. I think we keep heading forward, keep thrust to the front and just see how far we need to achieve our destination, but we always forget that how far we have gone, and did we took the wrong road. It will be further and further from what we are in the beginning. Sometimes, just stop your pace, and see whats around you, and decide to keep forward or even backward....

It rained from the evening till now and still the rain havent stopped yet. A quiet surroundings as it is the start of the Raya holidays. Less conversation can be heard from my room, less people to talk with now... Most of my tasks were completed, and i think it is the time to start my revision since i was away from class for quite a time now. Have to kickstart or else, i think its hard to achieve what i wanted to achieve at first...

Before i ended here, i would like to emphasize that we need friends when we alone, friends help us but just don't forget to repay their goods when they ask for...

Good day then~^^

Currently listening to Okuribito's OST

Upside dOWN

2009-09-16T05:55:00.000-07:00

Its 555am now, its the time when people wake up and time for me to go bed. Im not purposely to stay awake whole night for entertainment but for assignment. It is a busy week for me. I have 3 assignments on progress which needs to pass up on Thursday and Friday. By the way, Ive been rushing for the PT stuffs till I dont have time to slow down my pace. Maybe its my fault, my failure in time managing. So, i just can stay up whole night and make wise of the time to "catalyze" my task. Nothing to be proud of...

Ive been forgetful lately, and I keep moving forward and most of the time I lost concentration. Something just very simple but i took it too seriously and too anxiously regarding every task I get. Hope that everything will go well, hopefully no mistakes caused by me, and also I need to catch up my study.

Nothing to say actually, just have the thoughts would be posted up here. Just saw the beautiful cresent moon in the early morning through window, by slow pace, the dark sky lighten up with violet-soft red color gradient color morning. Heard the birds keep tweeting around, cold fresh air surround me, and its time for me to bed.

Goodnight ^^

A sudden thoughts...

2009-09-05T22:14:00.000-07:00

HOLA! Its me again, kinda sorry for the late show up after entering to a new sem in the uni life. It has been the 6th week in uni now and without i realize it, Ive been busy all the time no matter in handling the program im joining now or even studies. This sem is totally a new experience for me as I have to manage my time well in handling the program i join and also my revision time.

Now I keen to stay at room, sometimes sitting in front of the desk then taking out a no-matter-what-book that appropriates with my major and just flips through it. And I keen to sleep more as I'm easily tired as well. I tried to study hard to face any obstacles, but somehow... managing a program is a matter and study or revision is another matter. I realize that time is beneath our side, means we grab time all the time but just that the time like sand keep flowing out if we didnt grab it hard. And we never think back that we have lost more sands than the amount we grabbed in hand.

This sem eventually is one of my favorite sem after my first year in uni. I realize i managed to know my weakpoint and strong point in such way. I realize what i like and also what else i need to learn more in order to achieve better. One of my favorite subject is -Laboratory. It is just a simple mechanical experiments which we studied before in books or even taught by teacher. But when going through the experiments, i realize that the theoretical measurement or value and the reality one are totally not the same. "WHY..." I like the part when we brain storming after completing the experiment and started to think the factor of causing such difference of the value that we got through the experiment. I learn many from it, and realized that what we knew from book is not enough even we studied it before BUT we wont know how it meant to be if we dont studied from book. So, if we read up something PLUS we applied it, practice it...then it will generate a great knowledge.

Now I wonder I suddenly have such mood to blog. Maybe because I managed to get what I need for now and felt a bit relief. I started to realize that time is precious, so I also realize that we need something to transport us from a place to another. But we have shorten the interval period as short as possible. Then it will let you have more time to continue your next task.

For now, I realize that something about me or maybe appropriate with you as well...

Friends are important while you are alone, but remember how to choose a good friend.

Always realize there is a mirror showing YOU around you, the mirror are your friends. Always think back the praise or criticism from your friends.

Dont forget your love ones, family, lovers, friends...

What you plant will fruit what you want. How much fruits you want depends on you...

Always appreciate the aids from friends or family, a simple "thank you" actually will let him/her felt grateful.

Try hard because you wont know what will the consequences be.

Those are some quotes that bear in my mind now. It might be something normal or routine for you. But a small action will make a small difference. Be grateful what you own now, because you wont know until you have lost it.

Thats for all then, good day^^

my wish had granted~ blood~...

2009-06-30T22:31:00.000-07:00

It is one of my wish...

I have thought of it again and again...

I know I can do it, but... it obstruct me to do so...

I am so confuse to do it, I don't know can it be or cant...

Finally today I search the truth myself, finally... I can donate blood like others...^^

Only half an hour, my wish had been granted which has been lasted for years... I felt happy, and glad of course satisfy with myself^^. It is not because I'm afraid to go for blood donation, but because of my gene traits...so I am always too hesitate about it whether I can donate blood or not but until just now, I know my body in well condition and managed to let my blood out, feeling very satisfy with my body...

I don't find out by donating blood brings any cons, or should i say it only brings benefits to us. Maybe it is a mental thinking, by donating blood i felt fresh today... but then a good rest is a must to do so after the donation, to let your body "refresh" to normal condition. I wonder if you can "accidentally" doing something to break your daily routine, like suddenly by spending 30 minutes go for blood donation in any day you dint expect , maybe you will know what i feel... -the day will not be the same.

Time to keep our body well, think again... you are nothing if you don't have a healthy body.

Good day then^^

T for tired

2009-06-25T22:35:00.000-07:00

Indeed, tired isnt nice to us,especially to me...the tired i mean now is some kind of mentally tired. Actually today i didnt make myself exhausted much, but during the afternoon, I just felt that my mental was drastically become so weak, perhaps i should name it sleepy, tired, and weak. I think I slept late at night and kept woke up late (which I don't like this kind of sleeping style). But it kept happening when I was at my room...hmm...my bed is better than hostel's bed??? LOLz...

Now, to curb the problem, I just need to move a step ahead to get things kick started that is sleep early... Actually ive read an article regarding getting a good sleep at night. Maybe some people can spend whole night didn't sleep but still can so energetic in the next morning but some cannot do so. But if you think that your body and mind not working so well during the day time, it means that you should try to think your time of having meal, what you are going to eat, and also bed time.

Hmm...kinda sleepy now, thats for all...goodnight^^

Have I done something wrong to you?

2009-06-21T23:26:00.000-07:00

It is weird when time comes, not very often, not every time, but I would get cold shoulder everytime i try to get to know from you. I dont know what happen actually, Its been a long time we dint keep in touch each other for a long time? Or, have I done something wrong?

Today was the day CLHS held a senior-junior Interaction day since junior is going to prepare to get into their varsities with the lead from seniors. Then in the morning, I went earlier enough to school, and could be fortunately i met her, but since, i got cold shoulder from her,… I wonder –“why”… something is not right afterall… i dont know why and i doubt myself and my mind. I passed over her thinking the “why”… I dont know anything, or really have i made her keep a distance from me? Oh my… im really afraid of cold shoulder from someone i know…

My brain is full of “why, why why…” why like this why like that. By not thinking of it again, i went out for dinner at least i let myself out of the questions temporary. Now kinda tired, and try not to think of it already. Anyway, i will search for the answer… hopefully i will…

Good day then ^^ do a better today for the sake of a better tomorrow…

Johor Trip~ ^^

2009-06-20T15:36:00.000-07:00

This time is my first time going far away alone from home exclude Sabah, where did i head to??? Hmm…its Johor, the south part of Peninsular Malaysia. This time i went to Johor was on behalf of the invitation from my coursemate- Kok How, who just went back from Penang to his hometown at Kluang,Johor who keep inviting me over and over… so i just made up my mind going down find him^^ So the main place i went was Kluang which is a small district in Johor and also i went up some places like Ayer Hitam, Yong Peng, JB, Senai, Skudai. Everything began very well until i felt my buttocks kinda pain due to the damn-long-hour bus journey from B’worth to Johor… So, my schedule was mainly arranged like this:-

~1st Day~

645am Reached a place called Ayer Hitam, half an hour away from Kluang swt…

715am Reached Kluang bus terminal by taking taxi which was paid by the bus driver.

830am Meet up Kok How and had our breakfast at Coffee Rail for breakfast, which is famous for its “Roti Peng (Roti Bakar)” and i like the nasi lemak LOLz…

900am Went to Kok How’s house get a good rest~

1100am Go down to JB and passed Kulai, Senai, for almost an hour…swt~ finally City Square would be our stopping point. Had a good walk there and saw…huge, enormous, conceptual building- Malaysia immigration xxx i think lolz…

1200pm Meet Joe at City Square who would be our “tour guide” in JB since he is the JB expertise hehe…

1230pm Omg, Joe brought us to Ground Paragon hotel for a nice stay at JB, what a nice guy T.T and me and Kok How were shocked of his action…thanks Joe ^^

100pm We took our lunch – xio bak pui~ not bad, i like the roasted duck ^^

200pm After that, we hunt down another nice food again – mi hun kuey ~ a soup-type noodle which is like penang kuey teow th’ng la…but i like the minced pork~ pork!!! haha!!!

300pm Go to Joe’s house…

500pm Go down to Skudai and visited UTM~ superbly an engineering University….far away better than UMS LOLz~~~but lack nice view and lanscape as UMS hehe…

530pm Down to Danga Bay, a popular sea view in JB?? hmm….somekind like Gurney Drive…

600pm Back to hotel and get a nice rest…

700pm Had Curry fish head as dinner, not bad, but i hope for more spicy one…^^

900pm Oh yea…my +fav, went to Zon, a duty free shopping complex especially for choc, cigarettes& LIQUOUR!!! haha…

1000pm Ate Wan Tan Mee as supper, i wonder why the mee is spicy, no soy sauce, not even a dark coloured one, it was a bit tasteless for me…but i kinda like the tauke coz while he was makin the dish, he eventually tossed up the mee to ceiling then drop down again everytime to make a single bowl…

1200pm Had a Corona, a good plasma TV show, and goodnight haha…

~2nd Day~

800am Time to wake up and packed our stuffs…

900am Checked out and started our journey to Pasir Gudang there…

1100am Heading to Ayer Hitam and had dua pao as our brunch, which taste not bad, kinda nice actually…

1200pm Time to visit Ayer Hitam pasar petang and also bought some handcrafts and also souvenirs …

100pm Time to go down Yong Peng and had 西刀鱼丸 and 大胡子咖啡。。。

400pm Had a good time visiting Kluang Mall which is the biggest mall in Kluang now…

500pm Great challenging time hiking Bukit Lambak, ( if you got the chance go down Kluang, this is a must go destination if you like outings, and this bukit really more challenging than Bukit Bendera 2-3 times…i bet you gonna had the great time hiking it ^^

700pm Time to back to Layang-layang which is Kok How’s hometown.

1000pm Had a dinner + supper dining in 万里香 and had a 鳖, which was my first time tryin it…Not bad though hehe~XP

1110pm 3 of us loitering around the village and went for star view, and talk talk talk…zzz….

200am Pig time…

~3rd Day~

Aiks regarding 3rd day, I couldnt remember much though LOLz… but something really interesting was the bicycle ride around the “dragon fruit” orchard. It was fun seeing those plants in the orchard and we just rode around it, a great feeling, though we had to paddle hard since the road was kinda steep. Anyway then I took bus again, start my journey again going back to Penang.

Indeed, it was fun then joining friends out there, I saw many things, the cultures, people, behaviour, style, way of communicating in the northern region. Although the place was more or less the same comparing to KL and Sabah, but something flashes my mind, firstly, i knew that there are no so called “far” from a place to another in Penang comparing to Johor. Secondly, I still conclude that Penang food still the best although northern region still have good foods. Thirdly, Penang hawkers centre is one of the safe place to had a meal, you wont worry much about anything but just eat and chit chat there as long as you like.

I got an advice, if you wish to travel, do travel the states in M’sia before going overseas if you cant afford much, Im sure you can gain some outstanding experience, maybe hardly to get a leisure experience but you can feel the way you are and get to know what is what in you, and also… think differently the way you are…

thats all, have a pleasant day^^

ORGH!!! YEAS!!! ^^

2009-06-07T23:58:00.000-07:00

Today was so damn excited as I could once again attempt a 6km marathon near Youth Park there during the Malakoff '09 26km Marathon(7/6/09). I wasnt prepared to join the elite 26km run but just 6km run. YEAP...i made a good preparation for it and I was totally ready for that run.

The run took place at Youth Park and it started at 630am so before that Ive woke up at 430am to get myself prepared. So, me and 2 friends of mine reached at the spot around 6am. It was kinda dark actually as the sun haven't risen yet. And yet when 630am and the race was going to kickstart, the sky is still dark, and I feel it would be a great time to start the run. Then...3..2.......1....GO~! I started my run, and run...like Forest Gump, just keep running...

My body felt great at that moment, I felt great to run, and Ive promised myself this would be the first ever run I wouldn't stop down and walk. So, I kept running... constant run and keep up the people in front of me. I had a companion actually, she was running in front of me, along the way...running speed and stamina same as me, i tried to overtake her, and then she overtook me again >.<# haha... but anyway I managed to overtake her before finishing point and.......AH~ almost reached the finishing line and I accelerated to the line. Oh my...glad that I wasnt exausted much, and still ok with it...feeling 100% satisfaction and proud of myself as Ive done what i promised before the race started... This would be the beginning for my running experience and I would like to try the harder coarse, not to get the lead but to attempt my will. Thats all...

I noticed something that, everybody can run, you can run hard, or even you can run however you like. Whether to stop down or keep moving on is depending your will, not your body... You will know what I mean when you get yourself in the race between you and inner self.

Good day~^^

Snap the way they are.

2009-06-06T18:52:00.000-07:00

Recently I felt that penang do have some interesting and nice sky comparing to Sabah. I thought Sabah sky is far away better than my hometown but i managed to see the difference and captured some pics. Now, i knew that Penang also have the sky as Sabah^^ take a look, it’s Penang! ^^

The sky was captured in front of Queensbay mall.

“Face up to the heaven…”

Another was captured near Sg. Nibong area.

Four sky crappers-condos along the road to Batu Ferringghi.

Guess what… I WAS ON THE PLANE…to Penang.

Hmm…I tried to capture more interesting pic to make normal things outstanding. Surely, a nice camera will let you capture the best moment you’ll ever had. ^^

new 'home' for me...

2009-06-06T13:35:00.000-07:00

WAO~ its been a long time i stayed in the old blog of mine, now its time for me to move into a new 'home' and i named it 'P for papercut'. It was named papercut because ive used this ID since few years ago and felt it kinda simple and nice. And now I announce a new 'home' for my blogs (actually the posts all are just the same as my previous blogs, just imported only XD) upon the nickname i used all these years.

When teacher ask you p for what, just answer her - "P for papercut.".

B.o.r.e.d.

2009-05-26T01:08:00.000-07:00

Today was a bored day for me, as unusual i woke up late which is around 1140am, which was a very very damn very unusual routine for me. When i woke up, i knew today would be a damn boring day as the morning looked so gloomy and hazy. Just hate it...lolz...

I wanted to go out in the afternoon, but no where to go... and lazy, felt sleepy, a bit tired...

I wish I can search something to do while i was online, who knows...the internet speed damn slow...and again causing me sleepy...

I wish i can sms someone, but aih...what the heck...

and i spent 3 hours to take a nap during evening... I felt good after then, I ate lots...i need more endorphin, but still the same, nothing much changed...

I still have plenty of works to be done, I shouldn't procrastinate my task, but seems i need to have more motivation to make me keep moving on. But still... the same old me.

Anyway, tomorrow hope i can wake up earlier and then have a good breakfast, make me a good kick start. My +fav^^

Ok then, goodnight ^^ and good day~^^

I feel calm, some’how’…

2009-04-23T23:30:00.000-07:00

Today, the another day for me to sit for the Berunding final test paper. Somehow, i tried hard to give my best for that paper, and also it dint turn me down but I have tried my best after all. No regrets… Then after then my friend called up, calling me for a run at the stadium. And i agreed with him, and both of us later headed to the stadium and ran, (I have no mood to run for even 2 laps but my friend told me that “hmm…lets run for 8 laps”, and i answered “ok…” then i put away that laziness and ran until the final laps).

Phew…luckily my stamina still ok, that i managed to complete the 8 laps. Its been 2 months that i didnt go train for my stamina due to laziness and also bunch of silly assignments >.<# Then we headed for my long waited dinner, haha…vegetarian ^^. During the meal, we had talk lots of things while dining in. Its been a long time that me and him get such a long chat since the busy period along the past few weeks. Then after we went to ODEC, ah…nice place especially during night time with a cold wind blow over you( but too bad the wind is a bit salty and also not so cold T.T) Then we spent some time there, talk talk talk…apa pun talk la until talk till London Bridge la. During that moment, i have lots of flashback and thoughts, and suddenly i felt so calm, maybe i have someone to share my silly stuffs and still he listened to me patiently.

It would be weird right why my title which has the word some’how’ instead of somehow. I suddenly think that this word is appropriate with what had happened today. I would not reluctant to mention my friend’s name whom spent the time with me for the day from evening till night that i mentioned above, his name is my buddy room mate – Kok How. Hmm… he is somekind of a mature person with a tough will that will motivate him to do whatever he wants and also a very hardworking guy whom i impress with his efforts had been put in to learn something. That night we shared lots of things and also experience, and felt lots better during this tension period. Seems friends are best to have in our life, instead of wealthy only.

So, today had been a pleasant day for me since my next paper will be on the coming Wednesday. Although i still have plenty of time but i have to work hard la, or else sure die la…haha…anyway good day everyone ^^

Currently listening to : Snow Patrol - Run

mood: calm, steady, tired, fresh, but hot…

iMusic

2009-04-04T19:03:00.000-07:00

Recently i listen to mandarin songs more than jpop and jrock, i dont know what makes me listen to mandarin songs, but i think the main reason is i know how to read chinese word instead of hiragana. Also some of the reason that I have an intention to collect the old mandarin songs i like so much, so i listen to them quite often recently. Also, maybe my pc contains too much of eng songs, mandarin songs, jpop( no need to say la) so i want to listen all of them and starts to realize their lyrics existence in the songs. Although i listen to jpop much but mostly i have to find the translation for the lyrics. Maybe recently i use TTPlayer much so i able to find lyrics in an easy way ^^.

I realize some songs which are not so popular are meaningful for their lyrics. Many of the popular songs although nice melody but carry meaningless lyrics. This same as jpop and jrock, but not meant to all of the songs la XD. Nice songs, i keep, lame songs, very sorry la XP…

I wonder what would my life be without music. I tested myself before during my training for the National Service, that moment I very seldom contacted with music, so… i think it would be no harm for me. But then, i think that listen to music is a leisure relaxation for me, although i used my laptop and my lovely headset to listen songs only… Dive into the songs, and feel the songs, thats the point of being relax ^^

In this world, music dominates this 21st century especially when the music industries grows huge recently because of many many media that can play music everywhere you are and even where ever you are. So, have you wondered if you can listen all songs around the world, it would be a great success if you can do that. But i think, it is almost impossible… We probably cant listen all the songs we want to, but we can select the one we like and let them be part of our life, thats my point of view for enjoying the music. You like the music, and the fact is you like it, and no one can deny it. Just listen to the correct songs, and im sure it will make your life better and colorful^^

Hmm…craps here LOLz…~ anyway makes today better to get for the best for tomorrow ^^

Currently listening to : 新興宗教楽団NoGoD - あの日の空は極彩で

mood: relax, fresh mind, light mood, steady.

bloggyphine.

2009-03-28T10:45:00.000-07:00

Lately i felt the need to blog, i don't know why, maybe I'm starting to know myself better that i shouldn't be that lazy and also being a time wiser, also being someone who doesn't procrastinate.

Few days left before reaching 1st & 2nd of April which is the date I'm afraid the most because it will be the days for my assignment submission period. Until now, i just completed almost 65% of my overall assignments. And now its already 28-03-09. And yet i still have some activity to join, hmm…

I try to sleep just enough, use the shortest time to do a thing in effective way. Not to waste any minute even seconds. Eat more, just the way to get some ‘leisure relaxation’ for me. ‘ Yam cha’ recently already be my favourite past time to share thoughts with friends, talk with friends in a relaxing state. What a leisure relaxation…

Yesterday while I was singing a song, suddenly i wish to quote something bear in my mind during my singing…

没有学问，啊。。。无脸见爹娘。

I think i quote from an old song that we used to sing during our childhood. Try to think im sure you knew what song that i meant. Anyway, that sentence became clearer in my mind, so i was stunned by a second, and think what is that sentence about. I think i have thought something…although it is just a simple sentence, but most of the time, we forgot the simplest things that we used to be…

Tonight is the night of 60 Earth Hour, at 830pm, lasts for an hour, for me, i will shut down my pc…and let the earth enjoy the peace for being ‘a lower electric energetic state’. Im not sure whether my university will join this campaign but I just do what i can do. Hope i will not forget that earth hour.

We are human, today we may be a good person, tomorrow we might be a bad man. Today we can be lazy, but will be a enthusiasm person in everything in the next day. What type are you depends on what you think of what you want to be. No one knows what you want to be, no one knows what are you the next day. You are the sign board, only the signboard assigned by you will drive you to the destination where you want to be.

You conclude yourself, i have no idea at all…^^ yet today is a great day to begin with^^

Currently listening to ガゼット - Without a Trace

mood: energetic, happy, glad, cheerful…^^

Tired…really…x2

2009-03-27T18:48:00.000-07:00

Recently im really tired like hell, its not because of a bunch of books needed to study at once, but the lack of time managing my stuffs, such as arranging meeting for assignments, and also some time needed to do my homework. But mostly the most difficult part is meeting for completing a certain task.

I think it was the day before yesterday, i was totally exhausted and hmm…ive slept for 20 hours for that day, but not continuously la… and then the next day indeed energetic but my energy was used in compiling darn programming assignment. I hate that because i don't know much of it, and I have to spend lots of time to understand it and then apply it. It is not hard actually, just that it takes time for me to do that assignment. aih…~

2nd thing is - math quiz, which i don't really take much time to prepare it as I'm kinda lazy to have a kick-start with it although the quiz just takes only 2 chapters. But finally i kick-started already, but maybe im too late to get ready for the quiz as i just started doing the revision at the night before the quiz on the morning after that night. LOLz… so lastly, i ended up a chapter only, and…during the quiz, pathetically, i knew to answer half of the paper only, that is so called stupid la LOLz… (maybe i should see through the next chapter, perhaps i knew how to do it…) anyway, just a reminder for myself not to kick start a task in such 11th hour.

Now, it rains…for me, raining period at evening time gives you a relaxing moment for staying calm at home, then just thinking nothing but just listening to the sound of drops hit every objects on ground. But now its around 630pm, the atmosphere is totally cold, quiet, relaxing moment, but still im thinking of my assignments that haven't settled yet. I want to move on, but in slow pace, really… I was thinking the date of all assignment submission date is going to cut down day by day. And, i know i cant just leave a slow pace for myself. I try to strive hard for everything i grab in my hand. I wont let it be unless i want it to be. So now, im sitting in front of my pc at my room, listening to some songs. Although im kinda sleepy now, but i try to arrange my time using my kokonut. Just hope that tomorrow will be better ^^

So, strive hard for everything so not leave any regrets…~^^

Currently listening to ClearVeil – REBORN (new album) - Iro No Kaketa Sakura

mood: tired, steam, sleepy, miserable, confuse, afraid…

Shortest entry EVER!!!

2009-03-16T18:03:00.000-07:00

I took some time reading through my previous entries.
I laughed...and felt that.."is that the real me???"
LOLz...
It's like im reading a story, with different chapters of oneself (even i knew its me, but something that im almost forgot)...
Suddenly i felt that, hmm... at least i, myself better than myself from the past...
Anyway, im almost forgot im not alone la, still got friends and family...
I dint mean im lost now but just felt a little bit stupid only...

I just realize that ive been blogging for 3 years already. And it seems almost 4 years already...

Anyway gotta go now, see ya ^^

untitled - null - void - blank - WATCH~

2009-03-16T17:43:00.000-07:00

Sometimes, i felt nothing, i heard nothing, i see nothing, but i can imagine something. It is an ordinary or even routine task for my brain.

Sometimes, i felt that... even im not thinking anything, i would spend the whole day thinking that blank thing.

Sometimes, Im really ok, even my brain is working well, but then my instinct told me that "this is not ok la..."

Sometimes, little changes of yourself may change the whole thing within yourself. It can be good or even bad.

Sometimes, what i wrote here is eventually all bullshit. Because, i know myself more than you do. Because of this, I need to take care myself well before others.

Anyway, this is just my recent thoughts. Nothing to specify much, just that felt a bit confused,anxious,worry bla bla bla...

I wrote this entry now while my brain thinks nothing. But still the wording still came out from my heart but not my brain. Sometimes i felt kinda tired, not because of physically stress but also mentality stress. Im a worker or even follower and i wont be easily stress out, but if you wanna me think this think that, i would surrender... is it my brain spoiled jor???

Everyone in this earth owns their 24 hours time per day, fully utilized without wasting it surely make you a great day. But then...i wondered how much time ive used to make myself more and more??? Something called 'Laziness' found me and followed me, I want to leave it, but...bla bla bla...

I wore a watch lately, just a reminder for myself that time is precious and do let myself be in time for every event or activity but not on time. Watch is sometimes like a pulse, secondary artificial pulse that make you have the sense of time. Although im not having an expensive well known watch but my watch which is analog, "ticks, ticks, ticks," every moment every single minute while in a silent atmosphere makes me think of time still goes by, even you are doing something or even nothing. Watch helps you watch the time, watch helps you lots of things. Watch helps you watch the furious of the rate of the time flow. So, do not underestimate the existence of analog watch ^^ (hmm...this is what i think using my brain...)

I got a story, perhaps next time, i will be here again...so tata~^^

courage means nothing???

2009-02-20T14:54:00.000-08:00

Many people won a situation by mastering self courage and opponent's. Ive been brave today but seemed it isnt what i think about, it is not that easy, instead it is a just a beginning.

"No doubt that i will be able to do that." This quotient remained on my mind since that incident, made myself knew something about courage that will bring out something expected or even unexpected. If u can do it with bravery, of course you can change the consequences. But sometimes, it wont result something you really want.

14/2 seems a special day, since i have lots of surprise even a surprise from myself. It took me several days worrying something on that day even i knew that nothing might happen as well. But then before that day ended, ive put my guts at all cost and made something unexpected. Yeap, ive done it, i felt relief a lot... felt much better than before, maybe the best feeling ever gained... but after a few days oh my... something really unexpected turn out to be my main anxiety...

Even then, i can feel the indifferent atmosphere from her. Seems to be an ignorance, seems to be an avoid, seems to be dislike, and even seems like "better-dont's ". I dont know what to do sometimes, yeap i admit my egoism, but ive tried not to show it so often already. Hmm..perhaps something happened??? I dont know, suddenly i felt that my previous action was totally useless and the worse, causing someone unhappy...i dont know the main reason, but im sure that it is not a good feeling. I admit that i really dislike this kind of feeling, well...this is relationship, if you cant feel it, you arent human.

Ive tried hard to communicate well, but seems a thick wall with a huge gap between us. Oh my... Its been a hard time only for me? I dont know... but sometimes i will find something to get rid of that problem. What can i do now??? Who knows what happened actually??? I hope god knows, and also do bring me some happiness as well... what i want is just a little care, is that really that hard???

Anyway, struggling within myself every moment thinking this and that, dont know what happen actually and also just hope everything will go find, and still im seeking a good way to break the gap, hope i will be ok with it ^^

Time's up...time to go, good day^^

Oh my oh my...

2009-01-16T22:38:00.000-08:00

Oh my oh my…its been a busy week, till I had to skip my class to do PAP stuffs. Although my unit had already done the job given in the early time, but then we also have to help other units to complete certain tasks. Indeed it was hard then, really exhausted but sometimes I don't have nothing to do till I was so bored. But anyway I still present whenever I was called up to help out.

Launching day, it was Monday, a special day for us who involved in PAP 09 because it would be the 1^st day of the carnival of PAP. That day actually nothing much I could help there but still it was fun and I actually had my name written by a calligraphy shifu, and met some friends, really fun and I could intro my friends about PAP and also what would be going on for the few days onwards.

The days after PAP launching day were the important PAP roadshow held in every Kampung which would promote the PAP event on Saturday night and also trying to give out more goodies and information to students. Actually, the road shows were kinda bored, firstly it was held at Kg. E but I dint show up there but I went to road shows at I.P. , Kg. CD & AB. I most enjoyed the road shows at Kg. AB, why leh? Because I could meet my roommates and also friends from same faculty. And moreover I joint my PAP friends and had fun there. Oh my…we had lots of fun time there till we won many prizes haha…

Actually the most exhausting moments were the time when PAP night getting nearer. We have to stay whole day in the Chancellor Hall to help other units as well as a multipurpose helper. Friday was tough, but then Saturday also tough as well, but we still got time to relax and watch them rehearse the whole performance ^^. So, overall it wasn't that bad enough for us huhu…^^

The day has come, Saturday (17/1) and we all were busy to finalize our tasks, but weirdo, my unit was the most relax till don't know what to do next. But then… we managed to escape from the hall and hang out at 1B hehe… what did the guys suggest there??? They said wanna have high tea, ohh…actually they wanna give me a bday surprise… hoho&^^ I was so surprise that moment till speechless. Oh my…” thank you all..” this was what I said, lame la me >.<# After that we back to UMS again and it should be time to kickstart the extravaganza night^^

To my surprise, I would be distributing PAP booklets, oh my, I was so glad Ive given that opportunity. And also, the crowd were so long queue till there were 3000+ audiences attended that night. It was an astonish night, full with people, herds of people soaring to uplift the Chinese new year atmosphere, it was so superb till the claps from audience could actually beat down the PA system LOLz…

The night was full of surprise to audience but not to me since I know more or less about the performance keke… But seems audience wouldn't like to stay till midnight and many of them preferred to bed earlier, so before the night officially declared end, audience who lost patience would prefer to go to bed, and this wasn't a good sign after all but then the night was a successful night for all of us ^^

Mad moment had come, the PAP night was over then we had lots lots of pics. To my surprise my bday was the day after the night, a bunch of ‘siao kia’ who same unit with me, countdown the great moment and sang a bday song for me, and I was so surprise and they did it especially on the backstage and everyone knew that I was the one who bday XD oh my…another great moment to me T.T thanks to those ‘siao kia’ once again huhu…

Hmm…that's for all for the whole busy week, and also it was a great moment being with friends at that moment, so… just enjoy the great uni life and also say ‘yes’ to certain things might change the consequence of certain circumstance. So…great day ya^^

PIA AH!!! satisfaction

2008-12-21T06:45:00.000-08:00

Woosh...now i felt relief since ive done my job, partially...at least its my duty to do so, and also something that i wanted to finish it as soon as possible, and today 630am, Ive completed it, and what surprised me... Ive redo all the things that ive done previously...swt~ =.="

20,21 of dec 2008 were special day to me since 2 days which are 48 hours, i actually took 6 hours to sleep only...which i became an owl, slept during day time, and working at night time. It was obvious that I have some 'mission impossible' to be done. On the 20 of Dec, in the night time before i was going to bed around 11pm, suddenly i was told on phone line that I need to redo something that bothered me, the booklet, which i submitted past few days ago, but who knew, i have to redo again...woosh~ bo huat la...redo mah redo lo... and also I have to work nightshift and also day shift -.-" again...

That night I worked till 230am then by that time I was totally steamed already, and unable to continue so I went to bed since around 4am later I have to fetch a friend of mine who came back from KL, so I have to get more rest~ So phone rang later, and I was alarmed to wake up to fly to the terminal bus to pick up my friend, then later went for damn early breakfast, then back to home sweet home at 615am. 730am, a nice figure which tells me later i have to join hiking with my friend,~WTF~ i was totally exhausted already, and i have no choice but to move on, although i was tired... >.<# but anyway tough moment hiked to the dam, and damn...i was so exhausted even i could hiked while my eyes were 'semi close'. SO steam that moment, i really wish i could stop my steps and slow down my pace...and just call Ahmad mai sini ambil saya pi makan kemudian balik tidur aja la... mana tau~ Damn..i dont like doin things half way cabut,so I continue hiked although we took the wrong way XP and nvm nvm~ continue again...then WOOSH~!!! we reached the damn already, first thing came in my mind~ "wahlay...this is so astonishing...the view is damn great!!!" I was so excited since my vine was full of excitement hemoglobin, and the tiredness WAS GONE!!! LOLz~ nice view RULEZ!!!

and then we enjoyed the view over there and later we went down to town to take our brunch. Then rode my motor went home, after a shower and surfed some nets, what next?! -sleep lu...and slept till 3pm, I followed my parents to 'huan2 tai4 sui4'. Then later 430pm went back to home and continue my booklet thingys. And time goes by...I was slowly inspired by something, and had the idea to do the design, I was so regenerated and also my vain was full with some odd ideas then i managed to design a great border that i wanted it to be. WOOSH~ finally I completed it, ^^ and also...still left the cover design yet to be done later or else...die~

Then later night around 1am after went supper with a bunch of siao kia, then start working on my booklet cover design. I started to find it easy to make edit on it, who knows...design mana ada senang mia la... and i have to redo all the things, and guess what , I was doing a completely new cover design and this one page cover design took me whole night till 6am to complete it. It wasnt tough though... but it was so time consuming, luckily my PSCS3 dint hang at all...thank god~or else im gonna TL it...and hard time...and hard time...keep thinking and thinking and try to work out the new & fresh thingys...and luckily i got another partner who is a great helper who shares the burden with me, or else im gonna commit suicide, with a knife, stabbed into my abdomen a few times then consume some C4 blow myself...lolx~ really tough la actually...anyway now felt relief alot ad...since I have achieved something that i wouldnt expect to be happened. And im really satisfied with the effort i put in, and hope my effort will be paid off. And now realize that doing something, really need time management la, or else, keep doing it...can die also one la...

anyway this is just my personal thinking, just felt that this is a great moment to jot down my feelings, so...the same old word~ GOOD DAY then ~^^

Tough day, moody....

2008-10-26T16:15:00.000-07:00

It was a tough day for me, although I didn't work so hard for the sake of the football competition as I wasn't contributing anything to my team and also for the game. In the beginning of the day, it has been shown that today would be a tough day for us, especially for us to play the outdoor game. So, no doubt that we would be playing under the rainy condition and yet won’t be postponed. So, I just went to the field where the competition held and everyone was there and I just do it – play it.

So, the game started with my team consisted 5 persons in the game and a substitute. So, the first match was kinda made me irritate but still good, because I was chosen to be the goal keeper. I wasn't said I dint want to be it since all my team mates refused to be, but it was still fine for me in the first match. But in the second match, I was chosen again although ive talked to my team leader said I wish to have a keeper rotation among us. But then, he told me to wait, wait and wait. And very sucks, I couldn't do well in keeping the ball well from entering to the net. LOLz…funny ya…so ive talked to him also, but then still no point. So the second match was rather made me disappointing although my team scored but still lost the match. But then, I rather be the substitute one, and let them played it. THEN… the leader had no choice but becoming the goal keeper. LOLz… but pathetic, our team wasn't managed to enter the semis. So I was quite disappointed and just could stand there seeing others playing the game and washed by the cold breeze droplets from the gloomy dark sky.

And still the rain last for whole day. It even started from 4am till the midnight 1am. And still tomorrow … The sky has been covered by the white colored Grey shady clouds which shorten my vision causing me couldn't see through over the other side of the mountains. And yet, gloomy day causing lack of sun ray which caused laziness among us and yet, coolly breathe made us so moody and still procrastinate in everything. In fact, sometimes I like this kind of weather but when it lasted long, it became irritating since what I wish to do unable to complete in time. Perhaps not the weather caused me so lazy in everything, but its my old fart attitude – procrastination. In my mind has bunch of things waited to be accomplished, but then I was so pampered in everything that I didn't want to complete them and just let it be. Perhaps I was so exhausted in doing all those stuffs, maybe the things that I wish not to complete is the things I think is “additional work” and yet no one would care it much and keep pushing me to do all those works. So, sometimes I would rather let it be until I have the motivation to move and complete those works.

Hmm…ive been scraped lots but then I was quite miserable now since my exam is around in the corner and yet haven’t prepared yet and still have other things to do. Seems that I need to have the courage to burden and to take it as my responsibility and not to avoid the fact. Although I like to run, run to the finishing point and complete the course but have you ever wondered, during the race and stop it, turn around and see how far have you gone and what route have you taken. Not to run the wrong route and take the route that you believe that will bring you no harm and others, and then we can conclude that, you’ve taken the right road. So, turn around again and continue running, and im sure that you will have win win situation.

Omg, seems that I continue to crap also LOLz…anyway this is what I though now and my thinking that lasted for many days and I think its quite irritate having it in my heart. So I just write it out so that I would be one of my thought written and be a small story to everyone. So, sometimes just stop and stare…this is a method of success… good day then. ^^

Gloomy day...

2008-09-17T20:21:00.000-07:00

It has been a gloomy day since the heavy downpour started from early morning till the afternoon. Today was quite a tough day for me as I would have to attend 3 classes not continuously but it took my whole day just for some lessons. In the morning, I was told to go to see my course lecturer in the morning. I was glad that I could wake up early in the morning, but somehow, it rained…just small rain, not heavy yet. So I went for breakfast then went to see him. Not a while, heavier downpour began and the weather really made me sick as it made my jean, sneaker, and laptop bag wet. It wasn't a big deal after all since I would go to library after the meeting. Who knows… I was unable to enter to the library, again…I’ve failed my plan… In such situation, I really had no idea and just went to my room.

Here the story started, a great day started with a great morning, but so unfortunately it rained and it also made me so lazy to move around. I was thinking, “since it was rain, there was no need to go for that class since it was just a bored lesson”. That kind of thinking really bear in my mind at that moment. And what was most interesting was, if you found someone who had the same thinking as you, you might feel that your action and what you were going to do next was totally right and relevant. Indeed, it was just a surface of a certain problem… Once your thoughts were being supported by others then you would have the will to continue and had a great determination to do it. But what I was done just now…it was wrong.

Somehow, that moment I was enjoying watching “The Dark Knight”… at first I was thinking and noticing the clock beside me, saw the time flowed every single second, and I was still sitting here enjoying a great movie. When watching till the last part of the movie, the movie gave me a great reminder- Everything done was in every person’s hand, what you did, you would get what consequence. That time…I kinda regret a bit…since I made a wrong choice and option again… It wouldn't be like that… but somehow, now…I was kinda hectic and miserable since I have so many things to handle including my ERP assignment and oral presentation, PAP things, and also competency math. The time I dint go to the lesson was the time I practicing my math for my coming test. Hopefully it helped, but somehow, I dint agree my steps that ive taken.

Everytime I saw my “intro to mechanical” book, I was thinking.. “I was so fond to choose it, and have a great will to own it, till that I chose it as my first choice as my enrollment to varsities. But now… my determination seems… decrease… and I don't have to will to continue it………..” I keep thinking why… it is not because of the school but it is myself who merely forgot what is my target and what I should be strive for. Nothing else is more important than my course that ive chosen. But many times, even we got the time, we will be influenced by surroundings, and the time isn’t your time after all. And I started become busier and busier… for group assignment discussion, and other meeting as well…or even the ultimate greatly obstacle- Procrastination. Even I have plan my time much, but seems that little bit of delay may cause everything changes. Even a good consequence or a bad one.

Sometimes, it is a wise thought for you to have your own time alone thinking what you’ve done and what you’ve caused. The imperfective of something, and the prefecture of something that you have done. What you’ve become and the surroundings you’ve created. Everything is in your hand just what you’re going to do with your hand, your hand still remain as a hand but what your hand cause will not always follows as your wish or thoughts.

So that's my thoughts for today, although it just my word from heart. Hmm… do stop a while looking around while walking…you might have something different in your mind…

Options

2008-08-18T10:25:00.000-07:00

Today(17-08-08) supposed to be a memorable day for us as we came from the same school would go for a school carnival which is a reunion for all the ex-my-school mates came from all over the globe just for a few days trip and dinner. And today it was the time for me to show up and help them out, as we knew we needed to do that the days before... So what made this interesting wasnt the help out but something that appropriate with 'options'.

One thing will bear in your mind, if you are given options to do something, or whatever... how do you make your choice according to your rational and logical thinking??? Ok...dont let me bullshit here, here's the situation looked like...

Morning 7am i went for duty..just to bring the old folks go to a jetty thats all, and it came to an end where we were given break time and could have FREEDOM!!! (this is what im waiting for keke). The next steps in my mind was- lets go shopping at town. And we could make that with me and my friends went to town shooping with cars. But after that I received a call that we needed to return the car in time due to early depart to our next destination. But then before heading back to meet them, we were so bird~ that we went back to 'a place' after that head to meet them. OK, actually before reaching the "place" i was wondering if i want to stay at that place or just followed my friend. Ok, if i chose to stay back at that place, that night i could watch the badminton finals whom malaysian player would be the star of the match and i wouldnt like to miss it. But if i follow my friend, i would predict we would be so bored and tired. SO , if for you what would you do??? Finally i hesitate for quite sometime, i have made choice to follow my friends not because i wanna challenge myself to fight for the boredom or just to go for "siok"...just because i dint want to leave them and i knew that if i abandoned them, i would be the "jackass" la...anyway i just followed them...kinda weird, i felt like i wont be alone instead i got bunch of friends...and din think much about the badminton silly match...( and luckily i din watch it coz malaysia kinda hectic for that match XP)

and later night WE WERE SO LUCKY that we could join the dinner with the old seniors and we had much fun keke...the food was F*ckin SUPERB...like im back to Penang enjoy the great food...and later night again, we were so exhausted and hectic for the arrangement of the transportation for the old seniors to head back to hotel...anyway its still a small matter. And what important was...i enjoyed myself, and i wasnt regret on what choice i made just not only for my own good, but needed to consider ppl's good also...so that decision is a wise decision than a good decision for you and all ^^

Its morning over here (1023am) and my brain was so empty coz i just woke up at 830am keke...and just like to jot down something interesting here ^^ anyway good day...and enjoy the great moment in your life ^^

A bad day indeed...

2008-05-02T00:23:00.000-07:00

Everyday starts with a great morning...and the story goes on...

It was a good day indeed, a very tight sleep for me and caused me couldnt wake up in time for my work. But fortunately i managed to wake up as usual and managed to complete a task given half an hour ago. After that...I just headed to the shopping mall,QB that i supposed to head to at around 1030am, but unfortunately...i was late then...something terrible really happened next...till the afternoon, and also in the evening...and also night...

1. I was "informed" that i was impolite to the colleagues in the morning while i first met them in this early morning...and I was "sued" some kind like that.

2. Hmm...then in the evening, I was told through an inderict way, that I already against the company law, and the words still remain in my memory even now...at 12.18am. =.=" pity huh...

3. The parking fee was damn expensive and I had to pay for RM1x, just to let my car stayed stationary in a place. WTHeck...but fortunately, can redeem back the cash ^^

Hmm..it seemed a pretty hard day for me, but tomorrow hopefully i learnt something from yesterday and hope MUST remember what happen today for my main mistake that is- Not to late...

Thats pretty much for today, and I had to rest earlier...goodnight ^^

Tired= YES!!! finally...

2008-01-26T04:25:00.000-08:00

Its been a harsh period throughout this year and the past year for me to get a website done. The website had been planned since last year August, but website progress hardly to be seen during last year due to the huge battle that im going to face. So i just procrastinate it till my exam was over, and till now the progress of the website can be seen in a faster speed though LOLz...

After a few week struggling to manage the website, Ive been to several shops and supermarket just to find the time that really suit my own time so that i can manage the website in most of the time. And now I managed to do that, as a promoter in supermarket again... and most of the time I do the website. Setup a website indeed not an easy job, not just to know the way to design it, also it needs the skill to read the web codes so you wont be NUTS when you misconduct something from the code or some error you come across while managing the webby.

And I did spend lots of time designing it and also researching to suit some Adobe softwares. But something did make me so glad that is, Adobe bought up Macromedia is a superb and brilliant idea as now both company can work out to make better software for designers and me LOLz... to make things go easier and faster and more efficient. ^^

Hmm..its been 4.21am now, and the latest ever I keep myself awake since today is the off day for me but it seems not even a rest day for me as I have to struggle hard for tomorrow's website launch moment. Now, im proud of it and also kinda steam now, also tired as well... but anyway hope all the webby will goes fine. Im sure i can take care of it. But hope someone will teach me manage website in a better way, (im noob in dreamweaver though >.<#)

I think after the website launching moment, i will release a huge burden, I carried it and quite anxious every moment when im in touch with those thingys... Now, just think everything will go fine then I should leave myself to a relax moment... ^^

anyway, hope everything goes very very fine, and also...speechless as Im so sleepy and drowsy now, good day then^^

Hmm..miserable~

2008-01-01T23:58:00.000-08:00

Long time dint write an article till now since the final day of my exam. Hmm.. nowi think i have to ended my "job" as the Freeman, Ive found a job and it will be not as bad as i think. Im gonna serve people as a waiter. As usual, anxiety comes before the real thing happens and this is the real me. Im always worry about something yet to be happen and always thinking of the worse scenario. OMG, im so pessimistic ... I dont know why also... It seems a fine job for me but it needs lilttle skill being the waiter. For me, it is a first time job and also...a new experience for myself and this is what i need. But i have some doubtful thoughts sometimes... maybe I dont have the confidence for this. But anyway, "Try first, if dont like then toss it" this is my principle flowing in my mind while choosing some songs LOLz...but for this job, i think im gonna go for a many tries. Not to give up so early or too soon.

My heard seems a maze like, i was the pacman inside and still seeking the way to end the game, and still seeking the way. Perhaps till tomorrow when i go to work, I will be the pacman who found out the sun or moon or stars leads me to the exit. Now, perhaps i shouldnt too upset or too worry about something. I always told myself everything will go fine, as always it goes fine...but I hope it really goes fine as i expected ...

Hmm...hope i will have a good time working there. It supposed an opportunity for myself to try something new, but also I have to give the confidence to them and also myself, at least for a chance for both to try... LOLz... im crapping lots huh... seems tomorrow I will have more thoughts to write over here.

Anyway, even though i will be working on the time that everyone off-work, but also have to work...at least the first day though... so I have to ganbantte neh... good day everyone^^

Hmm...quick quack...

2007-12-03T00:45:00.000-08:00

Its been sometime that Ive strive for everything just for a simple reason, to do well in the exam- STPM. Just recently i put lots of efforts in every subjects although i am sitting just 4 test papers. Its been a harsh time for me, since there are lots of things to follow up and non-stop-ly , and continuously and also working hard every moment, although im not a working machine with 24/7 all time "ON" but most of the time would be spent on studies although not much hours in a single day. But it might enough for me, i think so, and maybe it is enough, or maybe it will not enough much for me to sit for the ultimate exam.

Now, the day and night time before the very last paper, Physics Paper 2. This paper is my only and just only hope for the rest of the subjects since the other subjects that i took was counted "sink"... means doom and i didn't do well indeed. So, I did not admit I practice lots for this subject but just hope that I can do well, and hopefully can get a good result for this subject ^^

Now mood seems a little bit blue, I don know whether want to continue to strive for the last paper or just to take it easy, both of the methods i tried before and the results sometimes very "shit"... And now I just take the time before going to bed to write a bit journal about the whole 30-day time before the exam and now, Hmm... It might be a long story, but now most importantly just to leave an entry here.

Anyway, Ive done the very best to myself, even though it came out silly questions I also undoubtful about anything, just can admit that I didnt prepare enough for the exam. But most important is I GOTTO DO THE BEST for tomorrow's paper ^^

That's all for now, and good luck man, and good day^^

Sleep early grant great morning, but sleep late grant better self thinking???

2007-10-07T23:55:00.000-07:00

Lately Ive been an "owl" or suppose i should call myself an active one during night time as i began to take long nap during afternoon session. That costs me cant fall asleep easily when night comes. Is it a good thing? Im not sure, for me...its an abnormal for myself, but I began to suit it >.<#

I just wonder why people would keep them awake so late for what reasons, and now at least i know, maybe they want to have more time with the night and spend more moments with their private life or something else. But what influence me to rest during such late night, I think that mostly i will spend my little time in front of the pc listening to some songs and then had a little chat with friends or even share some thoughts over here before going for a good, nice dream. But then, lately I downloaded some Jdorama, and I took this opportunity(late night) to watch those. It is not something that is 18++ but the series so touched, and you can find some great lessons in it, and many times I would watch it by myself and thinking of the lessons it tries to tell me. And I think it would be a nice thoughts to learn up before i go to sleep.

And most of the time I dont know whether my actions brings me bad or negative consequence or not. Most of the time I think again before I made another same move. And hope what I did was right, and hopefully I dint hurt anyone else.

Also lately, I downloaded alot of new stuffs especially (jpop and also jrock as you know im obsessed with it). What I learnt from it is, many artists produce their own music, no matter how the song is, it is just depends on you how to judge those songs. Maybe you feel this song is nice but not for others, and also you really need to have a guts to try a new type of song, or even a new artist or even a new genre of song. Please do not judge so quickly by one's first impression, many times we are wrong, and who knows it is not the one you're thinking only by judging their first appearance. So like hokkien said so "hiong hiong ki try"...If you found that it is not your type, then you can discard them LOLz... but said is always easier than done. But anyway depends on you how you think about it.

Seems I crap lots tonight, but just have some thoughts here and dont know whom i can chat with... but anyway as i always said, blogging it the best way to express oneself ^^

Good day then ^^

Im losing myself...

2007-09-10T11:51:00.000-07:00

Probably you will find that what im saying now kinda weird, but i just don't know have the idea to guide me to write about myself- perhaps a bit specify- my feelings... LOLz, perhaps i just can laugh out loudly for now, but not later... Hmm...where should I start my story??? I think i don have the need to be a story teller, just felt that lately im losing myself...

Be specify, you can see im smiling, laughing, enjoying... but when im alone, im kinda upset. I know the reason, but just kept it secretly... And im losing a routine activity lately, and it makes me kinda hectic, and sometimes... i cant concentrate though...

Probably an odd feeling though...

...what i do, what i say and what i think the name of my every actions in front of the noun I should add a substituent named 'mis'...

HHmm...sometimes I just dont understand myself, i keen to be a procrastinate person since this year. I cant manage to complete even a single task given, say truthfully... its kinda pathetic, im tryin to curb my silly procrastinate thingys, but I just redundant to do it... AHHH...help me...

This kind of life really is not the real me, help me... im drowning...

Erm...just thinking of something actually... nothing special though...at least felt relief for now...

*currently listening to Jacky Cheung- 心如刀割

WAO!!! great day man^^

2007-09-02T23:46:00.000-07:00

Ok, it was the sunday early morning and I was concious around 515am, and ready for the ultimate run with my new shoe keke. Then after fetching my friend, we departed the destination around 630am, and stayed there like a nooby for an hour and then the race havent started yet swt...but to delayed the starting time.... but then "PANG (gun shots)" then the race started....

I was running smoothly and constantly...kinda great feeling though. Then, kept running, kept running. I tried to maintain my running speed and my breathing, and tried to run, run run, never stop....YEAP, i made it, along the whole journey i only stopped 4 times keke...it was not bad liao actually keke... and somemore, I wasnt exhausted but my leg muscles damn pain maybe due to some extreme exercise few days ago T.T but nvm d...its ok d ler...and I managed to complete the course around 22-30 minutes ler...keke, neeed to try hard next time keke...

That's all, my passion to run, to test my determination, to test my endurance from becoming an easier-getting-loser person, and also to test my will power to conquer something.

So, run is for health but NOT run away from problems because it was only for noob only, and also, do not procrastinate to do something...it will destroy you...and you...and you........only...keke.... Good day then~

Hmm...interesting day though, but need to be prudent, frugal and provident???

2007-09-01T23:33:00.000-07:00

Ok, its a wonderful Saturday morning, i had a great kickstart of course and then I had my breakfast, then it was the time to go out again, for what leh? Hmmm... to redeem my T-shirts for the next day's marathon and of course to get myself a pair of nice running shoe. I have been wanted to buy myself a new shoe for running since the day I bought a rm12 shoe which also not bad but also not the best one accompanied my running mostly everytime. And I think it is the time I need to purchase a new pair of shoe and let the old one "retire" hehe...

So then I went to PM, after redeeming my shirts with my friends, then head to some shops to ask for some great shoes, shocking me, a pair of good running shoe at least cost you a purple-bluish-$$$. Hmm... but then those shoes were too expensive for me, but then when i got into a shop and a salesgirl intro me a pair of shoe, which was Nike, but kinda cheap la, cost around 100+ and .............. I bought it LOLz...when i got home, i looked at it and it looked great to me, but I have a thought that maybe it will be fake or original one, so I took a search on net, Hmmm....it was a fruitless search actually, you know why???? Because the design couldnt be found in the official website nor the shopping list. But maybe its 1/2 ori 1/2 fake LOLz....coz nike got no additional design on its product but mine one had. But its fine to me...as long as it was a great one.

SO, should I need to be prudent, frugal and provident??? I don know, I just think it was worth it for me, as it would last longer ( and i also hope it will)... ^^~

My mind=miserable, many "why-s", odd feelings, many flashbacks

2007-08-22T11:59:00.000-07:00

Today i should say that it was a long-waited day. It would be a great day for me and hoping something good happened. And the day had started, it started fine with a shine and active morning. And it was 1230pm, thats the time I was going out. Luckily, my friend fetched me there. The best part later went on.

Firstly, we headed to Queensbay as we knew, we would skate there. I promised a friend that I would skate with her, but don know I was kinda "handgun" or that shit "ego-ness" which my old sickness came back seek me, and I refused to skate. Moreover, i was reluctant to make any choices either going for a movie or just skating. Things went kinda "stupid" i should said, and I was decided to skate and my friend whom i promised to teach her skate went for a movie. OMG...this was so "D4Mn-5hi7"... I din know what went through my mind. I felt it wasn't myself, and I couldn't think rationally and I was the dumiest thing i ever done since...the day my fever burnt my neuro system inside my brain. So, i just went inside and skate, but for my surprise, I managed to skate well, but the pity thing was, i couldn't get the chance to teach her. T.T . Cherish to me...not a good circumstance at all. And it wasn't a great moment for me even I could skate well. So 2-3 hours after that, we went out from the skating field and met them to proceed our 2nd programme- go Gurney to watch Jay Chou's new movie- Secret.

So when we got there, to my surprise, I felt like me again. But without noticing the circumstance, my sickness seek me again, that silly "ego-ness" made me like a "lan-see" person again, and make myself felt so so reluctant to talk with her. Cherish again to me... So we went for dinner, again I din sit with her but sit behind her, and also the stupidity me din talk to her again. I din know why but i just felt a lil bit so called- jealousy. Maybe this jealousy arose inside me because she keen to talk with her friends but not me. Ah...heartbreak, what to do...just wait for opportunity.

So movie time, we sat down in the 12th cinema and who knows, the sound system was great, at least it din let me down again. So Jay Chou's movie started shown. I was watching the movie and at that moment i was so so intro the movie. I was so seldom watching this kind of movie at cinema but none of this time. It was a weird feelings to me. I din know why this movie had touched me so much. I suddenly thought of many many things. As now, I have thousand of words but it was so hard for me to express it all right now. I was so speechless now for my feelings, I could feel but none of you. And the first time I had such miserable mind, thoughts, and ...speechless me... The movie was great, I should tell you it was great, it wasn't because it was produced by Jay Chou but it was just great that i din expect it to be such great. It tremendously nice and my mind was captured inside the story, tell you what...i seldom been captured by a certain movie but this the odd one. I just like Wong Chou Sang starring this movie, he was just a great father in that movie. So about rating this movie, i would give 8/10.

Later when I got home, i was totally surprised as my parents had not made any dissatisfaction on me, and i din know whether it was a good thing or not. But to myself I felt kinda regret. So, when i turned on the tv, I just noticed today there was a movie gonna screened that is- K19: The Widow maker. In the beginning I din enjoy this movie much, but later on watching it, i felt it was great as it continues on and on. This movie aspired me, what was so called heroes and what could we do in a circumstance that we totally have no other ways but just only and the only way to do it. So if for you, what would you do??? The movie would be boring for you, but not for me as I watched it throughly. The brave comrades inside the sub carries their duties and courages among themselves to repair the valve of a water cooler, and all of them who entered the radiation room was radiated by the Uranium ray and got contaminated and causing vomits, and body physical weakness. So, many things happened inside the sub and, the captain of the sub had to make hard decision to maintain his crew's life as the radiation inside the sub was getting higher and higher. So, what was so called hero?? The crew inside the sub finally safe, but all of them were later isolated and were "checked" by the military. And really they din know the circumstances inside the sub and couldn't make the precise and accurate verdict to sentence them. So, only heroes were called and remembered inside the crew's inside the sub for those who had sacrificed themselves. Sometimes, what you did some other people wouldn't know but just the people were in the same circumstance as you. So, am I getting better now??? Actually , at least better than just now.

To conclude, it was a wonderful day though. A sweet, pity, sour, sad, touching, resourceful day. So, I would like to share a term with you all, that is- please use your freedom well because you are a free person, and you can do anything but not exceed a certain limits. So own your freedom well.

Thank you, and I think this was the longest article I ever written, just thought that today I learnt and noticed many things. Was it a good thing??? I din know, if you read it, you can give some advice, or think that it was just a crap article, but...who cares, its my blog though...

So, have a great day and have a better tomorrow ^^

A great day indeed keke ^^#

2007-08-18T23:57:00.000-07:00

Why i said today was a great day??? It was because today i got to wake up early in the morning and go to youth park and started my run. Again, it was a 7km marathon, and I had boosted myself actually the day before, as little warm up hopefully could differ a better performance for today.

So the sun rose, then I started my own way to run my track. In the beginning it was a smooth and constant speed running, but in the mid way, my stamina dropped, LOLz...i don know why but i think i wasn't fit enough for a whole non-stop marathon run. But luckily i managed to complete the circuit and it wasn't 7km though but just 5 or more... So i completed in around 20 min time. I wasn't bad and wasn't the best after all since many people completed the race earlier than me T.T But not bad la for a rookie like me who seldom uses legs nowadays for "traveling".

So, after that i went to school with a friend of mine. Actually is she, she used to be my net friend, then went to school to see the school which was organizing the 90th Anniversary of Foundation. So we went there and saw those exhibition thingys. It was kinda fun since I seldom been to see these exhibition thingys, it was a resourceful "trip" indeed. Too bad couldn't get my friend home, but at least we managed to catch a coach then let her on the coach while i was the 2-wheel-vehicle on my way home. By the time i got home, now i realize what is so called -"steam" and sleepy. Just couldn't stand it and it seemed like I was in a wave, propagates in the air and feeling like being push from my back. So what should i do?? - bed la of coz ^^

So....at evening till night nothing interesting happened actually, just a rest then rest then study...routine life cycled on.

* A stupid man like me who gets up to blog while on my way to Holland*

Speeding thoughts...

2007-03-18T09:10:00.000-07:00

Hmm...have you ever wonder what is so called speeding??? Of course, once you can drive you sure will know what is speed, and how you control the speed of your vehicle. Accelerating and speeding is one of the factor that catalysize you to speed up and have the thoughts of winning the other car besides or behind you. Actually, when you're driving a car, once you speed till 100km/h , i would gladly tell you :Its just that slow.

What is so called fast??? For me like car drivers, the maximun speed of a car can grant you is the fastest speed. But...for motor drivers like me also, i felt that 100km/h isnt the matter of a factor, but indeed its fast and you can feel the wind flows against you, and you can feel the wind friction. Its fast and furious once you speed up your vehicle more, and the more dangerous you will be because wind flow will cause you unbalance and easily lost control on your motorcycle. For an instance, I fetch my sister recently and sometimes i speed up till 70km/h . For me, its not a matter of a factor: Fast, but for my sister, she told me it was fast. But then, i felt it was slow as she felt was fast, so speed limits in people's heart is different to everyone and it just depends how you measure it only. And, once i got into 80km/h i felt it was the beggining of speeding, but my sis hold me tight and grapped me so well, and i could feel that it was indeed fast.

Once you speed, mostly we drivers may not notice we're speeding and arent fast enough for us. But from other perspect, we're indeed fast and just we can't notice only. So only the other people beside you can remind you how fast you've gone and what is the proper time to slow down due to self-safety and others. So sometimes, once we did something, we must think back and think again and again what are our problems and matters. Sometimes if we think from different perspect, we could have known what are our mistakes that we've done and we can correct it if still can. So....this is the thoughts i have right now, just want to share it with others...have a great day ^^

What am I???

2007-02-10T09:15:00.000-08:00

Are you the real you??? Recently i notice that our surroundings, the matter, friends, money, and even thinking will affect your action, and consquences. Indeed, whatever we do, we will do it, but most of the time we hardly to think about the consquences we will be causing. And naturally, we make mistakes easily, and regret. But...once you knew you did something bad or wrong, i 'd better advised you to change it from your attitude, personallity, thinking, believing... And try not to obssessed something, and change yourself in the good way so you can present yourself better next time.

Sometimes we should see something from different prospect, and we will easily predict the circumstance and consquence. Being a circumpect one, will help you to curb mistake made by yourself.

Omg...suddenly my mind was blank out, i couldnt remember what i wanted to write maybe i kept chatting with my friends. But anyway, just craps around....good luck ya to everyone^^

GOOD DAY ~~^^#

Hmm...180* change???

2006-12-15T07:51:00.000-08:00

It had been a great day for me, especially today, 14/12 because today it was an exercise day for me ^^ In the morning i went for soccer, then in the afternoon i went for badminton somemore. I should say that Its a fully scheduled day with sports activities, and somemore when i got back I was totally wasted T.T# tired, keep sweating, and steaming of course^^. But then the next day I had some activities to follow with. Hmm...kinda busy day for me T.T

Then It had been the another day. Today I suppose to say that I was kinda noob, because I was feeling strangely, like Im not feeling my real myself. And moreover, i was so speechless compared to normal days and I couldnt even talk about some topics to last longer. I was totally feel dissapointed and felt so dumb about myself >.<# Hmm..maybe my old sickness back again or maybe I lost the ability to communicate with others, or even maybe long time being with same surroundings and it had been a harassment to me. OR even maybe i felt a little critism on myself. Hmm... I dont really like something, its a harassment to me sometimes, and made me felt uncomfortable sometimes...

Ah...damn it, i hate to put myself in certain circumstance that circumscribed myself. Felt like want to escape from it, but hope it can turn into better way...hope so, Im really hope so ^^

Long time no blog.. until now...

2006-12-09T19:28:00.000-08:00

Oh my my...its been a long time i didnt visit my own blog, and also didnt blog for a month. But now Im feeling I got lots of stuffs to be shared with. A month passed so fast that I didnt notice it had been December now. In November it was a nice month as I sat for exam, and now I got the result. What surprise me was I did well in certain subjects and also did badly in other subjects. >.<# And next year I hope and a fun year of studying will be.

PC Fair again held in PISA, and again caught consumers' attention and got a huge crowd just in 3 days time. Everytime it is crowded and so do I, joining to crowd. This time, I prefer to buy myself a nice woofer, in the midyear of 06 I've aimed some nice-affordable-great woofer. But kinda bad I planned to purchase it in the end of year since that there will be another fair in that moment. So the time has come and I bought myself a Philips MS430 2.1 woofer. And of course it costs me around 200+ bucks, with some goodies keke. And Im totally falling in love with it, and so I brought home with my sweet one. ^^ And preparing to give a try on its "powerful" bass and the sound quality. And it shows a good result to me, since its also a new speaker to me. But then I tried several times in different place especially in my room and I tried several ways adjusting the satelite and the amplifier. Once I adjusted the correct position, I knew I had bought a "moster" home. What shocked me was - the bass that really shakes the whole world. Even you could feel the vibration of the floor and also the thingys around you. AND... I just tuned 1/2 of the bass configuration. And volume only 3/4... Hmm...really shocks me...

But anyway, hope it will be a nice holiday for me then wish you all also can be as happy as i am now. But in fact I felt so empty for the pass few weeks ago. But now Im ok, but still need to "fix" myself to be a better myself... OK just for now chao~ ^^~

Hmm..time management???

2006-11-02T12:13:00.000-08:00

Well...time management had been important to me lately, since I have to manage my time very well in order to study well, but consquences...im always avoiding from what i've planned. Im always postponed something from a day to another, I know im running out of time but it is a hard time for me to correct my laziness. But since that I must correct it, and it is a must... like just for today, I just played online game for a whole day, did nothing but just wasting lots of time in surfing the net and also listening to songs. I just didnt have the motivation much to continue my revision. Seems that I really have to descipline up myself to change my attitude.

6 days counted down from today to the date for examination, and what i know about myself is- im still at the base level and like im a constructor building a 60-story high building but Im just constructed the 1st or 2nd floor only...darn it...

So, i wont write so much as i have to bed early and starts to change my sux attitude, ok for now and good night, and good day for you^^

wah...stress and interesting day^^

2006-10-26T23:51:00.000-07:00

Today, i woke up early in the morning around 7am, after taking breakfast then go to my friend's house to return him some anime^^- Conan one hehe... So i rode motor there near Komtar there, and returned him the vcd. And after that I went home, but not a while I have to rush to library for a group study. 1030am- 2.00pm studied in an air conditioned room, surely stressed me out, because im so not used to the air condition surroundings. But after 3 hours study, I went home by car, but then something interesting happened. When i wanted to drive my car out from the lot, a car came in the opposite direction toward me, but nevermind, HE/SHE STILL MOVED FORWARD TO MY DIRECTION!! and showed no mercy to give me a way to pass it although his site got lots of spaces but my car was situated in a one-lane-small-road, so, seemed that I have no idea so I just could reverse my car until the very end of the road to let them pass. OMG...its totally hillarious when i was removin my car to backward, the opposite car still moved towards me like pushing me away, omg...

Then when i reached home, i was totally tired and I have to fetch my sis to tuition after being at home around an hour. But rained again, so I just could use car to fetch her. Then, after a journey to the destination, I was so so tired even could feel asleep while sitting. So i spent half and an hour to take a nap because later at 6pm i have to go out somemore to hang out with friends. A busy moement again for me, fetching friends and also going for dinner. Guess what, I went to Padang there, and there was no Lok Lok for us to take, lolz... so no idea we had to change avenue to Pulau Tikus there, so finally got Lok Lok there, and we spent almost 2 hours there, and also we had a great time there. 8 persons consumed around 80+sticks lolz...

So, the night was still young for us so we've decided to go to cyber cafe for games. LOLz...firstly we had CS, then o2jam, then Ricochet....what a nice game^^ I didnt expect that I would get the most kills in Ricochet MHUHAHA.... so after spending around 2 hours there, we went to take some dessert near our residential area, of course we had some great pics and laughter moments there^^. This gathering was special because 2 of my friends who went back for holiday from outstation join us for the dinner^^. Of course, we had a great time there and it was so fun since we didnt enjoy ourselves much since we graduated from secondary school. Many of my friends went to study in other states and sometimes cant manage to meet them so frequently.

So, a memorable moment was today^^ Fun and precious laughter moments^^ So, wish you all the best friends^^

An interesting day^^

2006-10-24T23:29:00.000-07:00

Today its been a great day for me, espcially i could spend most of the time with my family^^, truely said that i seldom hanging out with my family, because im more likely to love home hehe. So this morning, we went to had breakfast near city there, we took koay teow th'ng. A nice meal since we took it last month...>.<# So later we went home and no longer later we headed on Prangin Mall, we went there because my dad wanted to buy something for himself. So we had Tom Yam there as lunch and we shopped for 3 hours i think. WOW, exhausted...and of course kinda fun also^^. So later we went home again to have home made meal of course ^^.

So, later they went out again, but this time I would stay at home doing my own stuff. So, its my world again, opening loud volume for my lovely songs and of course, enjoy myself^^. But something unfortunate happened- my pc was restarted ion a sudden. I was so shocked just now, because i didnt come across this error quite a long time. But nevermind as I thought it would be a problem to open BT for a long time. So i just leave it, but then, my wins XP was restarted twice the time, then i felt curious about it. Then... when i checked for the problem, it really became a problem indeed- it kept restarting again and again, and I felt it didnt work fine, so I spent most of the time back-up-ing my files and also songs and dramas. Spending much of the time doing those stuffs made my didnt have the dare to surf the net to avoid the wins from restarting, and caused me a lot of unconvinient. So....all went fine also hehe...all were back-up-ed already^^

So it seemed a pretty fine day for me ...so hows yours?? Hope you can have a great day...^0^

Fun of course tired...................

2006-10-15T23:36:00.000-07:00

Today was a big day for me as today was a tuition-free day, and of course I went back to my sunday school, hm...a bit disappointed and also quite surprise. But after being there an hour, I had to go to Gurney Plaza for movie, World Trade Centre. It's totally tested my patient for a new movie because i could get the seats for the movie for free hehe. Then going for the movie, and who knows, IT WAS A GREAT ONE....so touching in the end, and i rather like the plot of the story. Then when we finished our movie, we had some acrade games with 3 of my friends, and we had a great time there , and it was the time we went for lunch, and while we're heading to take our vehicle, a heavy downpour came. T.T but we had to wait for the rain to stop, then as the downpour became smaller, then we headed to our destination, who knows it became heavier and heavier, but we had not chance but to get there as soon as possible.

So and so, we went to Penang road, the massive people-vehicle congestions almost caused us wont have the chance to look around but to pay more attention on the road. So we stoped our vehicle on the road side and started to find something to fill in our stomach. So finally we had our lunch at a nasi kandar stall, Kayu...HOLY SHIT>>> damn expensive than others....erm..im sure you got what i meant, its totally cut your throat into several pieces... ah....TxT aih... but nvm, at least i know the popular stall are mostly cut throat hehe... so after a meal, back to home...

it's a fun day and of course a tiring day for me, but it's been a long time that I didnt enjoy it that much, although it was quite money & time wasting, but at least i would have the chance hanging out with my friends...so what again??? hope you guys have a great day^^ and forever~~

btw~ i've downloaded much albums, and IM SO HAPPY ^&^

G.R.E.A.T.Z.

2006-10-14T23:56:00.000-07:00

Today was Saturday and of course it was also a schooling day, but today i supposed feeling not willing to go to school, but going to school brought me something new. That was I found something special also^^...on what i got was a secret hehe. And then, today went for a hair cut, who knows, I think I had a nice hair cut and I received praisings from my sister and of course my mother^^. Hope it will be great after waxing it...then, just now i tried downloading some songs from the forum using Megaupload, in fact im not really like MU because it was sorta annoying and it requires you to install its toolbar to enable you to download file from their server. So, all the way i didnt download it, but just now I could download it, WOOT...so surprisingly, and the download rate was fast^^, so today I managed to download some great albums that i've waited for a long time...oh gosh...this was so greatz...as I enjoyed listening songs much than ever... So dont you agree that?? As well as surfing for forum is good also, as it is a great sourceful place for everything. So, i was having a great day, and of course the next day i will be going for a great movie, so called "WTC", so...just as usual also, have a nice day^^

Yosh!!! it's been a great day since that moment...

2006-10-10T22:05:00.000-07:00

First thing first... YEAZZZZZZ!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I never such delightful before since undergoing almost a week depression, I dont know the main cause but Im alright now, because I have found something precious to me last time and also now. I found a forum Z-D forum^^ a totally a community for jpop, kpop, and cpop lovers to know more about the album releases and also the only that make ease for the members to download the songs. I worked so hard finding my beloved jpops, and finally I found one of them,ahh...i felt so relief now. The forum was down in the past February i think due to excess web storage bandiwidth and cause the forum had to pay lots for the huge bandiwidth, but now i think it's reopen again...wao!! that's so so so cool again. Finally can download great songs easily again^^

And something else, today i went to buy a racket for myself, although all rackets seems expensive, but the quality depends on the price of the product. Like last time I bought a cheap one for myself and only a shot, - it's broken. LOLz... so i spent almost hundred for the racket and just hope it can last long, and not easily spoilt.

Today was quite a busy day for me, I rode motor all the time this day. From morning went out then afternoon then went for soccer, all i have to do was driving a long distance to reach my destiny, that's all. But it was kinda fun as i can enjoy the joyful ride but i didnt speed though...^^ So seldom studied for today, although today is a holiday for me...but...nevermind...but also concern about my schoolwork as the final year exam is just around the corner and i havent prepared much about it, and of course i will easily get doom..."delay..." always bear in my mind and i think it should be erased AQAP!!... because of this type of thinking, it will cause me a lot of problems for my studies and also part of my life time... oh my...i craps lot today...ok just for today and wish good luck to you all^^ KITA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

High and low just in sometimes...

2006-10-08T10:35:00.000-07:00

I've felt quite depressed lately, just because not my school work but i just have a feeling that something or some part is disappearing in my life, im not sure what did happen to me, but i feel so unnatural lately. Hmm...just maybe after ive watched a jdorama so called "densha otoko (train man)". I love the series much because it happened just like me last time. But I love the story because it is indeed like a fairy tale in the reality world, it is hard to admit that it wont happen in daily life but sometimes we will find a hard time to find a suitable life-time partner. S

Sometimes I felt upset, but i dont know why, and sometimes i felt something is empty inside me. Ive almost done everything to cover it up, but its still the same thing. But something really obvious to me is that everytime I enjoyed watching the series, I was indeed enjoyed it, but after watching it...i felt sadly, maybe i just also want to be like him lolz...just because im also still single though. But ive tried to make my life as interesting as possible. But seems that im going to miss that series because it only left 1 episode that i havent watched...seems that i really dont want to watch it because i dont want it just ends like that. Am i a -ve thinker or just +ve thinker apart this matter??? Im also not sure. But seems that I have to end it soon because the longer i postpone for watching the series, the more anxious i am. So.....

ok..that's all for today, just felt free only to post something...all right have a good day then ^^

Hmm...only a moment only...>.<#

2006-09-03T23:36:00.000-07:00

A normal day for me of course, but today seems a little bit special, today after going for tuition class then i straightly went back home instead of going somewhere else. Hmm... its the first time for me to go home such early. Then, first thing first, EAT!!! I was so starving that moment that I could take 2 times the meal that moment. Then I went for my essay writing and took a nap of course. And then went to my grandma's house. But after that , me and my family went for dinner, and the moment we had our dinner, we walked to the car park. What made me curious was the moment I saw 3 persons who are "visionless" and had the difficulties to cross along the road, they really cross the road with sticks with them, and 3 of them were helping each other and cover each other to make it to the opposite road bank. Their determination to cross the road was so strong and attract my attention. A motor with high speed passed by and they sensed it and they step backward for safety. Then they continue to make their way to opposite site. My mother saw it and told me to give them a hand, I was in hesitation and answered my mom " ah? er...ok" I wanted to go to help them and once i move some steps toward them, they managed to cross the road safely. I felt relief they crossed the road, but something suddenly pop-up in my mind. I was thinking that why i was in hesitation in the moment i want to give aid to other people??? Am i dont have the will to help??? or Am i to coward to move forward to give people a hand??? OR am i too unconfidence to help???...Many questions suddenly pop-up in my mind and I just cant have the way to answer those enquiries. But what really remind me always is "take care of our eyes as its the only vision we have, once loss it, we will live in dark". This quote always remind me to take care of my eyes as I get through some though days few years ago as i have some tiny problem about my eye. But as a conclusion, I wont be in hesitation next time when people need help or they didnt mention also. And Im willing to help out if there who needs help from me. Thanks...and take care^^

UN-satisfaction...darn it...

2006-08-24T23:23:00.000-07:00

There arent much things surprised me lately, but just something made me very frustrated recently. Firstly, I failed in my motorcycle test which made me need to take a retest, and as a consequence I have to be in that same place again which i dislike much. Then, secondly my school works. It has been a few months since i entered the form 6 which is a whole new schooling environment, the main things that really makes me frustrated is about my enquiry about learning to be a better mine. But I got the idea on how to proceed it but Im lack of determination to continue what ive planned to do as i planned. Thirdly, the school donations thingys. It really made me crazy recently as I need to go out myself to collect the fund, darn it. It was quite a time wasting and of course a way of energy wasting. Im not saying it was a bad things or it was a bad task that we've taken but in fact it was quite hard for is to reach the "quota" that we need to. Conversely, if can I would really put some money in it and just hand it to the school authority. But, it really exhausting doing this stuffs indeed. Whatever... darn it I wrote this... damn so unsatisfied with these piss thingys...

Continuous...like a day...

2006-07-20T21:51:00.000-07:00

Tues- It was a normal day for me again, and i was kept thinking of something, chance of riding on a motor, myself one hehe. But then , I need to be more patient as my motorcycle wont be arrived as early as they promised to me. But i know i can just have to wait a few more days and I could get a ride on it with joy^^. Erm...nothing happened, so -ended- hehe...

Wed- Er...today was quite an interesting day as I could attened a lesson because of the teacher that taught us, he was nice and with sense of humor, who knows he wasnt nice at that day and released his temper at us, of course we also didnt wrong also so, we deserved it. But then. at least I got a lesson from his advice, that was... respect, responsible, logical thinking. But then it was quite good then, at least we realize what we had done. Er...later had a football match with friends. ^^ very interesting as i could perform my best to play...i was rather satisfied as I knew i was better than the very very last time hehe. So...feeling so greatz that moment...only scorred a goal for myself but it was a precious one^^

Thus- Today not a bad day, but it was a bad weather for this early morning, storm breaks the early calm morning, but with shiny, bright, peace, and of course rather hot afternoon. But then , it was quite nice for mea s I rode car to school, but seems not a good matter for motorcyclists as they need to rush to school to avoid the downpour. But today nothing happened, ah...my friend who was just stop his studies from now on to continue his multimedia design courses at provate college. So...rather sad because lost a friend to be joint at school. Hmmm...today I was just felt want to complete my blog and stop extend the time for blog the old entries. I felt it was not my style as I hate it. Ok...that's for all...good luck guys^^

"Bota-licious...", calm ride

2006-07-17T23:40:00.000-07:00

Today was quite a rush day for me as i need to go for motorcycle pratical as i need to refresh myself once i came back from school and need to rush for the pratical. Er... after arriving there, I was quite confident for myself that this time I could have riden or controliing the motor well. Who knows........L've done it . LOLz...anyway it was greatz... and besides that I managed to balance myself and driving with constant speed so well and "bota-licious"-interesting ride. Er...after an hour of riding, I was called to end the training. So once reached home, I felt quite well and feeling great... Err...but I couldnt write this blog on that day, as this post is extended posted one. But anyway it was still the same, same matter with different post time only.^^ But then at night I have to attend for a new class for my physics tuition, I wasnt new to that place as i got friends also, but I was kinda not so satisfied with the surroundings there, it was quite narrow and coldy place, but nevermind, it was quite a good place for a lesson also, so ganbantte la^^

WAO...a really unexpected day for me^^

2006-07-15T19:12:00.000-07:00

Today supposed to be a lazy day for me as i can rest at home, even i was so so lazy to get out to get myself a meal for lunch time. But then...after taking lunch, i took a nap instead revising my homework >.<# But an hour later, my dad woke me up and what were they tell me was, "lets go and have a look on motor" In a sudden, my heart tells me that, the time has come but it was also lazy for me to take a single move. But finally i took my dad's car and went to one of the motor shop there. "HOT AND SPICY" that i can describe the shop, it was so hot the atmosphere there and so spicy with those various motorcycles. Erm...then we had a look on those motors, and what made me so interesting was the auto one with Modenas, Yamaha, Comel. Err...it was quite nice and finally I have chosen one... the Passion 125, auto of course ^^ hehehe...

Then...it surely made me so happy and so excited that I couldnt describe my happiness in words. So at night i went to join my friend's birthday party, and of course have a chat with friends^^. Ahh...that day my heart was so nice...and guess what...im getting more and more courages riding and learning a good motoring skill...^^

Wao...keat keat keat^^

2006-07-03T21:14:00.000-07:00

It had been some great days lately although nothing much happened, but what made me so delighted is, I FINALLY CAN HAVE MY 2nd collection of their concert, L`Arc~en~Ciel. And completed downloading Scary Movie 1-4 for my sis. And also succeded backup some of my jpop albums^^ and finally I CAN PLAY ALL O2jam's paid songs and free one. WAO!!! that's a totally unbelievable for me to get so many great stuffs just in 2-3 days time, and moreover, I've joint a tuition class yesterday and noticed that Im really need tuition to guide me along for this one & a half year. So, it is quite an interesting tuition for me since that it is just a small class and the teacher is quite nice and i understood what is he teaching about. So...nothing much happened lately, and finally i've also learnt how to operate the motorcycle and furthermore i will get a L Licence for myself and guess what, hope for a new vehicle...er...suddenly I felt that my mind was blank, like I was brain washed with maths and ive no idea on how to write using vocab. Er...seems that I have to read more articles... aih...good luck then^^

wah...bad weather great day...

2006-06-24T22:05:00.000-07:00

it's been a long time that i dint enjoy myself much even since im from NS. This time we had a movie with friends, and also took meals together and along making a simple farewell for my friend who will be going to outstation soon. And, we had great time there, but maybe I planned not so well, some of my friends even rushed to the mall during downpours. But we couldnt manage to meet them in time due to some finding parking difficulties. But quite interesting, we watched "stay alive" which the movie i felt that quite interesting because of the creative of the producer and also the visual effects. And i wonder if the game was released and anyone would give it a try??? hehe...if for me i really would If i got the enough courage to do that. And before that we had meals together and we did talk alot, then after a movie we had some acrade games in amusement centre. But since that it was quite late, my friend had to go back then later my family came to the mall and i had dinner with my family^^ and we came back just the right time at 8. So now, im feeling want to post a new blog now and maybe the next day also^^. Indeed a great day to me^^...

Miss the good old days blogging daily...

2006-06-14T22:17:00.000-07:00

It had been a time that i didnt post any new entries here. It was not because I didnt have any interest on bloggging anymore but just I felt that I have a lot to write down but just lack of time. Since I went and came back from NS, I wrote my daily activities on my notebook. Of course, I will try to post it up here, and also finally I've chosen Form 6 as my route to my further studies. I didnt choose to stay in college because I really had a hard time choosing and get used to a new situation. I suffered a lot of uncertain decissions made by myself and also hesitation on choosing my perfect job. I can say that Im a fussy person, even from eating to anything, im keen to choose something suit me, or not i will rather deny something i dislike. So after going through 2 months time of NS, finally I came out and entered form 6 in my secondary school. Then, I heard lots of comments, opinions, critics, etc about my decision on form 6. People said it is not an easy task to complete this one and a half year period's time. But anyway, the main objectives for me to take form 6 is mainly to gain more knowledge about physics & chemistry because I have more interest in chemistry. So, i wont be regret choosing this. Erm furthermore, I've joint a camp and I really tired for the training session for that camp. Erm...of course, i had running nose and some headache. But now, better than nothing...but still running nose, darn it...>.<

Ok...right now, I entered to form 6 class already, and really...it's a whole new study atmosphere for me, I havent learnt motorcycle yet and also didnt choose any tuition for my subjects ether. So, Im quite tension lately for me to had lots "functions". Of course, everything needs to pay something to get back what you've paid off. So, indeed I have to pay more efforts in my studies in order for me to achieve something. So as a conclusion, ganbantte^^

Oh yea, something I have to add it here, I watched a japanese dorama lately, the series so called "1 Litre no namida (1 Litre of Tears)". It was really touched my heart, as you know im a emotional person, something makes me upset a lil bit or I think about something, my tears will roll down on my cheek. Then, the series was really nice, meaningful, full of life values. You should download it or even buy it in the store and I BET IT IS GREAT FOR YOU TO KEEP IT AS A PRECIOUS ONE.

Nothing to say now, seems that tomorrow I will blog again....chao~ good luck^^